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I'm just so lost... (TRIGGERING)
Tags depression, fat, psychiatrist, psychiatry, self harm, short, therapist, therapy, ugly
I went to my therapist appointment and she wants me to see a psychiatrist. If I see a psychiatrist, my mom would only want me to see her once because we can't afford to see both a therapist and psychiatrist, and my mom still thinks nothing's wrong with me.
I'd be seeing the psychiatrist for self harm and a possible diagnosis of depression. My mom is a shitty listener and didn't hear the depression part until I told her, and my mom pretty much got pissed off and said that I really must be playing games with her because nothing is wrong with me. And if I do get an option to continue seeing the psychiatrist, because of costs I'd have to pick between my therapist and the psychiatrist, and I don't know what to do about that. My therapist has already been such a big help, but would a psychiatrist help me more? But I'd feel bad just leaving my therapist. =/
I've just been feeling so low this week. I look in the mirror and see someone who is so fat, but yet is too chicken to do anything about it. I'm not even overweight, I just feel so bad about myself. I'm so ugly and short and just...bad, I guess. Nothing's right right now for me. The urge to self harm has definitely been affecting me lately, too. I don't know what to do anymore.
I'd be seeing the psychiatrist for self harm and a possible diagnosis of depression. My mom is a shitty listener and didn't hear the depression part until I told her, and my mom pretty much got pissed off and said that I really must be playing games with her because nothing is wrong with me. And if I do get an option to continue seeing the psychiatrist, because of costs I'd have to pick between my therapist and the psychiatrist, and I don't know what to do about that. My therapist has already been such a big help, but would a psychiatrist help me more? But I'd feel bad just leaving my therapist. =/
I've just been feeling so low this week. I look in the mirror and see someone who is so fat, but yet is too chicken to do anything about it. I'm not even overweight, I just feel so bad about myself. I'm so ugly and short and just...bad, I guess. Nothing's right right now for me. The urge to self harm has definitely been affecting me lately, too. I don't know what to do anymore.
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I think maybe you should think positive thing about you.And why dont you try to find some one like at your school to talk to if you cant really afford to pay so much?Posted February 28th 2012 at 09:16 PM by bugarin
