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Scared.
Posted October 26th 2013 at 12:28 AM by Ennui.
Tags evaluation, fear, medication, mental health, parents, self harm, therapy
My therapist set up the meeting with my mom today. She didn't go into any details with my mom about what's going to be talked about, but she's going to suggest I am sent for an evaluation and possibly medication. I'm all for the idea, but my mom won't be.
I'm scared, so scared of what's going to come of this. She's going to act all calm to J and then flip out at me. She won't even consider getting me evaluated. What if she wants to check me for new cuts again (J isn't mentioning the self harm though, I don't think)?
God, there are so many things that can go wrong. My mom doesn't even think anything is wrong with me. I don't want to open that can of worms but I have to. It's not going to be good and I bet it'll make things worse, but I guess I at least have to try.
But it's not going to be worth it.
I'm scared, so scared of what's going to come of this. She's going to act all calm to J and then flip out at me. She won't even consider getting me evaluated. What if she wants to check me for new cuts again (J isn't mentioning the self harm though, I don't think)?
God, there are so many things that can go wrong. My mom doesn't even think anything is wrong with me. I don't want to open that can of worms but I have to. It's not going to be good and I bet it'll make things worse, but I guess I at least have to try.
But it's not going to be worth it.
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There are things that could go wrong but there are things that could go right. Maybe this will open your mom's eyes to the fact that you need more help. Try not to worry so much and just wait for your session and see what happens. I know that is easier said then done but worrying won't do much good.Posted October 26th 2013 at 01:40 AM by
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I agree and I remember when I went through what you are going through more or less. I finally broke down in front of my mom begging to be evaluated and even told her that I would accept being told that I was fine, etc. Went in, found out that I would be put on meds and counseling and yea it did cause a slight rift between us at the time but we got through it and I did get better. You know I'll always be behind you in whatever happens. :)Posted October 26th 2013 at 02:20 AM by Thereishope 
