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Idk. (Mentions of SH)
Posted April 4th 2015 at 05:23 PM by Ennui.
I am a walking contradiction right now.
I have motivation to do so well but then no motivation to actually make the effort. I am so lazy.
I feel good but yet feel bad.
I feel like a failure currently because I feel like I am sinking lower and lower with things that should be so important to me.
I want to cut again. My sister's puppy has sharp little nails and is also teething meaning she likes chewing on people. She scratched me a few times and I can't help but think how easy it'd be to cut myself once or twice on the arms and say "Oops, Babz must've gotten me."
I want more weed.
I want the semester to be over already.
I want to just sleep and do nothing and feel nothing and be nothing.
But I'm too busy for that.
I have motivation to do so well but then no motivation to actually make the effort. I am so lazy.
I feel good but yet feel bad.
I feel like a failure currently because I feel like I am sinking lower and lower with things that should be so important to me.
I want to cut again. My sister's puppy has sharp little nails and is also teething meaning she likes chewing on people. She scratched me a few times and I can't help but think how easy it'd be to cut myself once or twice on the arms and say "Oops, Babz must've gotten me."
I want more weed.
I want the semester to be over already.
I want to just sleep and do nothing and feel nothing and be nothing.
But I'm too busy for that.
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Posted April 4th 2015 at 05:38 PM by Thereishope -
You've gone so far SH free, keep fighting! Try reading a fantasy novel it. Helps me escape in a refreshing way
Posted April 4th 2015 at 08:52 PM by Not_here -
Posted April 4th 2015 at 09:27 PM by KimmyKitty -
You Can do this. I'm here if you want to talk.
Posted April 5th 2015 at 03:34 PM by -
You can do this, Dezie, stay strong! :hug: ♥
Posted April 8th 2015 at 10:37 PM by