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I'm tired of being a failure.
Posted March 17th 2018 at 04:42 AM by Ennui.
My anxiety and depression are ruining my life. I can't function anymore. I'm tired of being such a failure.
My learner's permit expires May 14 and I doubt I'm going to get my license before then so I might as well dump my money on going through the whole thing again.
I doubt I'll get this job. And it's difficult to find others when I refuse to work retail or food service, am not certified for other jobs I really want, and don't have a driver's license.
I cry and stress over everything. Made a big deal over not liking the food in a restaurant and having to order something else.
I've tried so hard at things and don't succeed anyway. I want to stop trying.
I hate my body.
I wish I had access to therapy and medication again.
I had a whole blog planned out but forgot everything I wanted to say. I'm just tired of being lazy, being defeated by everything, being a failure. I'll never succeed in life anyway. I'll never be a functioning adult.
I should just cut myself. Two years, seven months, and three weeks of progress but who needs it. I deserve to be dead but don't have the guts to do anything.
My learner's permit expires May 14 and I doubt I'm going to get my license before then so I might as well dump my money on going through the whole thing again.
I doubt I'll get this job. And it's difficult to find others when I refuse to work retail or food service, am not certified for other jobs I really want, and don't have a driver's license.
I cry and stress over everything. Made a big deal over not liking the food in a restaurant and having to order something else.
I've tried so hard at things and don't succeed anyway. I want to stop trying.
I hate my body.
I wish I had access to therapy and medication again.
I had a whole blog planned out but forgot everything I wanted to say. I'm just tired of being lazy, being defeated by everything, being a failure. I'll never succeed in life anyway. I'll never be a functioning adult.
I should just cut myself. Two years, seven months, and three weeks of progress but who needs it. I deserve to be dead but don't have the guts to do anything.
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You might feel like it, but I don't think you are a failure at all
Posted March 17th 2018 at 12:27 PM by Celyn
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You're an amazing person Dez. You'll find a way through this hell. You can do it. Are there support groups you have access to? Those are usually free with or without suggested donations. Thinking of you <3Posted March 17th 2018 at 10:02 PM by NeuroBeautiful
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I feel you on so many levels here, but I promise you, you're your own worst critic - you're not a failure. You can do this.Posted March 17th 2018 at 11:38 PM by Everglow.
