Therapy, Lesbian, and Confusion (TRIG)

I ask for a young therapist so I can relate. I get the old chick who did my intake because of my stupid schedule. I just don't want to miss school or quit my community service, but while I lied to my parents saying I liked that lady, I really only found her okay. But my mom said flat up it's either deal with her or don't go at all, and I kinda DO have to go because while my parents don't know this, it's either go to therapy or overdose. The pills are still getting harder to say no to. And nobody will know that because I know that shit can't stay confidential. Hopefully stuff starts changing before I get to that point. </3

I'm even too much of a chicken to go talk to my guidance counselor. I know what I want to ask her, I just get scared asking my teacher to call down to make sure she's available first. At this rate, I'll never get help with writing the damn letter telling my parents I'm a lesbian, and I know I won't be able to do that without some guidance. My counselor happens to run our school's GSA, so I think that should at least help me out a LITTLE.

By the way, if anyone here knows anything about how the United States foster care system works and would like to answer some questions I may have, can you please PM me? I just really need to understand a few things.