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Giving up slowly. (Triggering?)
Tags anxiety, depression, failure, giving up, motivation, school, self harm, suicide, worthless
Half of me cares, half of me doesn't. I don't know how to do anything in school anymore, half because I'm a stupid fuck and half because I just don't care anymore, but then I get back my grades and remind myself just how much of a worthless failure I really am.
And half of me still just wants to take the pills, god dammit, if only I had the courage to they'd be swallowed right now. And still want to slice up my arms with the pretty new tool. Though I'm going to the YOUTH Forum event soon. I've been hitting it lucky, too busy to cut.
But I've just given up motivation on everything. Schoolwork, doing things with friends or even texting them back, sometimes it's even hard to do Staff stuff and that's saying something because I love Staff.
Grades slipping.
Just so burnt out I can't do this anymore and can't do anything to fix it. I've given up on myself.
And half of me still just wants to take the pills, god dammit, if only I had the courage to they'd be swallowed right now. And still want to slice up my arms with the pretty new tool. Though I'm going to the YOUTH Forum event soon. I've been hitting it lucky, too busy to cut.
But I've just given up motivation on everything. Schoolwork, doing things with friends or even texting them back, sometimes it's even hard to do Staff stuff and that's saying something because I love Staff.
Grades slipping.
Just so burnt out I can't do this anymore and can't do anything to fix it. I've given up on myself.
Total Comments 3
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First off you are by no means stupid. I know how hard school and life in general can be. As I've mentioned to you before as long as you try your best that's all that matters.
As far as feeling burnt out, slow down, take breaks. I've been there before too and sometimes just stepping back and taking a min or 2 breather is enough to help get you feeling refreshed.
Just hang in there, you'll get through things and as I always say you know where I am if you ever need to talk. :)Posted October 23rd 2013 at 11:50 PM by Thereishope
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I'm not giving up on you though <3
Hey, maybe you need a break. That doesn't mean you need to leave . . . in any way. I want you alive. I want you to be yourself. I want you to receive appropriate help and support.
And I want to be here for you somehow. Dez, throw away the pills dear. You don't need that.
Posted October 24th 2013 at 09:27 PM by i_like_black
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Don't give up. Life will go on no matter how hard it gets I know it's hard but no one is stupid its hard I know but even though I don't know u I care. Don't give up if u ever need to talk in here
Posted October 25th 2013 at 07:23 PM by AdventureTime
