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Depression and Suicide If you or a loved one is feeling depressed or suicidal, you are not alone. Talk with other users about your feelings here.

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I can't take anymore.
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Re: Adios, Amigos... - June 11th 2009, 12:03 AM

Hold on. Suicide is not the answer. My cousin commited suicide and it tore apart my familily. Please, Please, don't do it. LIfe will get better if you can just wait. I was ready to kill myself a few years ago, then i met the love of my life. Please don't do it....



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Re: Adios, Amigos... - June 11th 2009, 12:04 AM

Nah, I've waited too long...
I can't take anymore.
   
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Re: Adios, Amigos... - June 11th 2009, 12:07 AM

Please hun. Just wait. People care about you. If you go through with it, they will never ever recover. and i promise you, it will get better!

Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Please please please don't do it. life will get better!



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Re: Adios, Amigos... - June 11th 2009, 12:10 AM

people keep telling me that it'll get better...
I've been waiting all of my life for it to 'get better'.
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Re: Adios, Amigos... - June 11th 2009, 12:10 AM

it will get better like she said. just don't kill yourself. it won't solve a thing i promise! live, you can do it. i know you can.


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Re: Adios, Amigos... - June 11th 2009, 12:13 AM

please, LJ, we're here for you...



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Re: Adios, Amigos... - June 11th 2009, 12:16 AM

You know what? I don't even know anymore...
I tell my doctor how I feel and he gives me Prozac, knowing full well that it doesn't work for me. I tell friends how I feel and they abandon me, even though I need them and just want them to be there for me. My family find out what I'm doing and instead of taking care of me they shout, and shout and scream, and wish me dead. I'm sick of it.
   
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Re: Adios, Amigos... - June 11th 2009, 12:18 AM

They don't wish you dead, its just really hard for them to cope with the fact that you are depressed, they feel like it must be their fault, and they can't handle it.



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Re: Adios, Amigos... - June 11th 2009, 12:22 AM

They've told me to my face! They hate me...end of...=/
   
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Re: Adios, Amigos... - June 11th 2009, 12:23 AM

If they really do hate you, then something is really wrong with them. You're 18. You can leave. get out of the house, go it on your own.



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Re: Adios, Amigos... - June 11th 2009, 12:25 AM

I can't cope alone. I can't go to uni coz im too 'ill'. I can't be trusted to be alone...
Meh. Maybe I should take the rest of these pills and then go to bed.
   
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Re: Adios, Amigos... - June 11th 2009, 12:28 AM

No, no you shouldn't. You need to find a way to get out of the house. join a convent? there are teen shelters, too. If you can't leave home all together, get a job, try to stay out of the house as much as possible. get a hobby... something to keep your ming off it as much as possible.



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Re: Adios, Amigos... - June 11th 2009, 12:31 AM

I've tried to get a job but the recession means its difficult. Besides, no one wants to employ the mentally unstable, do they? and I hardly leave the house, I'm scared of leaving tbh. I have big anxiety issues...hobbys cost money, money that I don't have...hmm...
   
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Re: Adios, Amigos... - June 11th 2009, 12:33 AM

They shouldn't know that you've had some metal issues. and not all hobbies cost money. try going for walks, or learning to whistle or play harmonica or sing. teach yourself to draw...



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Re: Adios, Amigos... - June 11th 2009, 12:34 AM

hellooooo i know how u feel.
everythings shitty, and waiting for things to end, seems to never come.
i dont know u. but i could, u could know anyone with time, so hang on.
u've already been posting on this thread for 45 minutes.
45 minutes after u said goodbye, u dont want to do this, not tonight, not now, not like this.
keep going if u can, call somebody, samaritan or someone to help u, to guide u to safety tonight.
please, its not over, not until u decide it to be, ur reaching out right now, wanting to live wanting to survive.
so do it, survive through this.
i know u can, u know u can.
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Re: Adios, Amigos... - June 11th 2009, 12:36 AM

I do sing and draw, I tried to learn guitar but...it didn't go so well and in a moment of anger I smashed it aha..
I have an exam today, in a few hours...I'm gonna fail.
I leave college next Tuesday for good.
I'm gonna be homeless coz i'll have no money to give to my mum for keep, I'll be living on the street...I can't cope, I can't look after myself, I'm a joke...a fucking joke.
Meh...I'm just gonna give up now...

Oh, I called a helpline earlier but meh...didn't help.
No one realises how bad this has gotten... =/

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Re: Adios, Amigos... - June 11th 2009, 12:43 AM

I think i understand how bad it is. I want you to be alive. I want you to live. Like Lea said, you want to live, thats why you posted this thread. We want you to live too. keep drawing and singing. let it keep you alive. Pour your whole life into those skills. I know you can do it, just keep pushing, keep breathing. I care about you, so do others on here. Please.



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Re: Adios, Amigos... - June 11th 2009, 12:45 AM

What if...
What if I don't want to breathe anymore..?
What if there's nothing left...
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Re: Adios, Amigos... - June 11th 2009, 12:46 AM

There is always something left hun. Just keep going... something or someone will come along and turn your life around.



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Re: Adios, Amigos... - June 11th 2009, 12:48 AM

Nah..nothing is left anymore..
I'm gonna go, sorry for wasting your time,
   
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Re: Adios, Amigos... - June 11th 2009, 12:50 AM

no no no no no. Don't go. you're strong, you can keep breathing! I know you can! if you couldn't keep going, you wouldn't be on TH. I know that you can pull though.



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Re: Adios, Amigos... - June 11th 2009, 12:51 AM

I'll be alright...I think, idk, meh. Like I said, I apologise for wasting your time ):
   
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Re: Adios, Amigos... - June 11th 2009, 12:54 AM

No, hun, you haven't waisted my time at all, I'm here to help. if you need to go please PM me later, ok?
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Re: Adios, Amigos... - June 11th 2009, 12:56 AM

Why? why would you care...I don't understand... ):
Hmm...I have wasted your time...
I wanna go for a walk, but its 1am and I know if I go out then I prob won't come back, but then again I'm sat here with pills and a sodding rope so I could do just as much damage sat here. Gah. I hate life. I'm a stupid, pathetic idiot with nothing to live for. The voices keep telling me to just do it...just end it...meh.
   
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Re: Adios, Amigos... - June 11th 2009, 01:01 AM

I care because you are someone who is in a lot of pain, and i feel like i identify with you. You are NOT stupid or pathetic. And you have LOTS to live for, you just don't know it yet. In a few years you'll look back on this and be so, so glad that you didn't do it. Pick up the rope and the pills, put them down the garbage disposal. You are stronger than them. Defeat them. You can do it.
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Re: Adios, Amigos... - June 11th 2009, 01:06 AM

I am stupid and pathetic...and I dont' have anything to live for...The rope and pills, well...I've taken some pills, not a worryingly large amount - it wouldn't even begin to damage me but I already feel so sick and dizzy, pfft. The voices are getting louder, all of them are in my head and they're doing my head in...literally. Liam is the one who makes me angry, and he's doing a good job of it...but Nathan's the main concern. He's the one telling me to end it. Meh. I'm just a poor excuse of a life, really..
   
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Re: Adios, Amigos... - June 11th 2009, 01:09 AM

can you go to a hospital? I don't really mean for the pills, but for Liam and Nathan. It sounds like they are the real problem.



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Re: Adios, Amigos... - June 11th 2009, 01:13 AM

No...they tell me not to. I can't go to the hospital.
I'm sorry, for this...
Thanks for taking the time to talk to me though,
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Re: Adios, Amigos... - June 11th 2009, 01:15 AM

Don't listen to them, they are the root of the problem. you need help, if you go to the hospital, they can help you and give you better medicine. They can take care of Liam and Nathan.

And you aren't an issue or a problem. please don't do anything drastic. Don't listen to Liam and Nathan.



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Re: Adios, Amigos... - June 11th 2009, 01:18 AM

No hospitals... =/
No...
I dont want medicine. I'm livid that I'm back on prozac...I don't need medicine. Actually...I'm fine. Perfectly fine...hmm. No hospitals..i'm not crazy...
   
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Re: Adios, Amigos... - June 11th 2009, 01:20 AM

I know you aren't crazy. Its Liam and Nathan that are crazy, you need to get them out of your head. They are hurting you.



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Re: Adios, Amigos... - June 11th 2009, 01:23 AM

Meh. They've already destroyed my life. You know, I shouldn't even be here...
I need to go, sorry. Take care..x
   
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Re: Adios, Amigos... - June 11th 2009, 01:24 AM

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Re: Adios, Amigos... - June 11th 2009, 03:19 AM

LJ,

I want you to listen very closely to me. Look at yourself. You are a human being. Like any human, you have the potential for greatness. A totally lame inspirational story-
"In Germany, there was a boy named Albert. Albert was never very bright, or talented. His teachers would send him home, telling him he was too stupid for school. His mother, in her anger, told them, 'You wait and see, my Al will rise above all of you.' That little Albert grew up to become Albert Einstein."
I believe in you. Kim believes in you. Liam and Nathan aren't you. They aren't what you should be listening to. Go get help. Flush the pills down the toilet, and through the rope away. They're not the answer, and ultimately, by killing yourself, you'll destabalize a whole load of people. Believe it or not your friends care about you. We care about. And I'm pretty sure your family cares about you.
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Re: Adios, Amigos... - June 11th 2009, 04:18 PM

Well...I'm still here ): I don't want to be but I chickened out of killing myself. How pathetic is that? Hmm...anyways...thanks for being there...
   
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Re: Adios, Amigos... - June 11th 2009, 04:37 PM

I'm glad you are here




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Re: Adios, Amigos... - June 11th 2009, 05:12 PM

Hmm...I don't see why you're glad ):
I still want to die more than anything, but I couldn't do anything for another 45mins anyway, coz then my parents go out. Hmm. Fun times ):
   
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Re: Adios, Amigos... - June 11th 2009, 05:20 PM

People care about you. I care about you. A lot of people on here care about you! It would make me sad if you left. I know it's hard.. But you just have to stick it out. Just take each day one at a time.




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Re: Adios, Amigos... - June 11th 2009, 05:36 PM

I had an exam today, the question was actually quite easy and I was surprised at how much I knew, but for half of it I just sat there staring into space and having a panic attack. I didn't finish, so I've prob failed anyway. I can't be doing with it, you know? Its like ugh. I sound like such a whingy person, but I just don't feel ready to explain all that's going on in my life right now =/
   
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