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I've lost faith in myself and humanity - October 28th 2009, 11:43 PM

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People lately seem like such fakes to me. I don't feel like I have any true friends. One of my friends, a girl I kind of like, is kind of a quiet mystery. The other has a high temper and seems bipolar when it comes to choosing her friends - one minute, she's your friend and this person's enemy, the next, she's their friend and your enemy. Two others, siblings, are highly conservative Mormons and would never accept me if I knew I was bisexual or lesbian. It's the same with another, only I think she might accept me eventually, though she's been so distant lately and we hardly see each other that I don't know what's going on anymore. My other friend isn't really my friend but hangs out with the first friend I listed, so I have to be around her if I want to be with the others. My parents don't seem to understand me. My counselor doesn't seem to know how to help me. I seem to have lost my ability to communicate and carry out conversations like a human being, and I fear that I'll never re-learn that skill. I'm constantly afraid of being judged. I don't think anyone wants me but my parents. Everyone else could live so easily if I were gone. They could probably forget me so easily. I don't know if living is worth it anymore. I feel like such a fake. I feel like everyone else is a fake too. And sometimes, I feel like I would be better off if I just disappeared for good. I've been tempted to make it happen before, but now, I feel like I'm closer than ever. I just want to jump into the river and end this before it has a chance to get worse.

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