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Warning: Extreamly Negitive - November 3rd 2009, 02:10 AM

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I just can't fucken do this... I want to die, why wont people just leave me be and let me! I live a liveing hell every day nothing ever gets better... life just isn't worth living, I'm not worth fighting for, just... let me go... let me leave this cruel world, it's... it's what's best. ='(... just... please don't try and stop me... I'm sorry for being alive...
   
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Re: Warning: Extreamly Negitive - November 3rd 2009, 05:01 AM

people wont leave you be because they care. you MIGHT think what i'm say is Bull **** but its true. try to write down why your feeling down and try to see if you can make it better? Even thought people can support you but your the one who can really make things better. try not to think about the negative. try to think more about the positive. even the smallest once. anything you can think of is fine. maybe your tall? cute? handsome? any positive thing. your smart? how about physically? everyone has a good point. try to think about the POSITIVE thoughts ONLY! if you need help i'll listen to what you have to saywhat you want to scream out loud. because i sort of know how you feel a little right now. i need you to remember this

there is no happiness with out sadness

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Re: Warning: Extreamly Negitive - November 3rd 2009, 07:08 PM

Not every one is like that you are special and people would miss you.Thjings don't have to be that way. The important thing is that you want to live because you reached out. That takes courage and you are strong.
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Re: Warning: Extreamly Negitive - November 3rd 2009, 10:12 PM

Its true what has already been said.. when someone truely cares they wont leave..
however much you ask.. I know when you feel like your feeling it can be hard but there will be a point to your life, and I'm sure many reasons to continue to live, but right now you cant see that. Have you got someone you can talk to about how your feeling? Talking honestly about how you feel might help people be able to help you.


[x] Even though I'm the sacrifice,
You wont try for me, not now,
Though I'd die to know you love me,

I'm all alone,

Isn't something missing?
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Re: Warning: Extreamly Negitive - November 5th 2009, 09:46 AM

Gah... I'm just not worth it why do you try... your just wasteing your time... I'm sorry
   
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Re: Warning: Extreamly Negitive - November 5th 2009, 07:13 PM

No that is not true. You are worth more than you see and I am not wasting any time at all.
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Re: Warning: Extreamly Negitive - November 6th 2009, 05:56 AM

tell us why you think you're not worth it, make sure you have facts and stories to support your argument.
pm me if you like. I will assume that you're worth supporting, because someday you will be useful in this society, until you prove me wrong.
if you just don't know what to do with your life, that's not an excuse to waste 18 years worth of work put into shaping you. (parents, teacher, friends, etc.)
so anyways, tell us WHY and WHAT makes you think you're worthless... and we'll see from there.


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Re: Warning: Extreamly Negitive - November 8th 2009, 08:23 AM

I was right where you're at a couple of weeks ago dude. I felt like I wasn't meant to be born, that I hated my life and everything about it, that there was no point to go on and that I was alone. I couldn't kill myself, so I started living with a death wish. My grades dramatically fell apart, I became an alcoholic, started getting into drugs, and nearly got a DWI. If I'm to believe what I said when that happened, the driving drunk was a suicide attempt. I even started seeing my fix and pushing everything away as being more important to me than my friends.

But, what I found is the more I reached out to people. The more I started to trust people. The more I came realize that I do matter. That even if my parents gave me away, there were those in my life that cared. That I was letting down. I think it was the moment that I could see clearly the bottomless pitt, the rock bottom I was going to hit if I kept it up.... that's what saved me.

You might say you want to die, but seeing your life vanish and start to disappear before your very eyes. Trust me, there is a lot to lose. You have a lot to live for. There are people in your life that you might think don't give a damn about you, but fact of the matter is - would rush to your side whenever if need be. You are important, everyone is - take this from a guy who went to hell and back.
   
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Re: Warning: Extreamly Negitive - November 9th 2009, 03:15 AM

*sigh* I just... I've failed at everything. I started high school with much confidence and dreams of where I might go after that. It took about... 3 months for that to fall apart, I didn't do well first year... I failed epicly second year... droped out 3rd year, I then tried to go back like 9 times failing epicly every time. Well... there was a small bit of hope when I got a job after droping out, but I couldn't stay there becasue I became to depressed. It's been what?... 3 years I think since I left school, since then I've lost all my friends, they gave up on me... Most recently it was my best friend, it's extreamly difficult liveing without her, *sighs and tears a bit* my heart knows I didn't really lose her, we still talk.... sometimes... but not like friends should, they've all given up... Then... my family gave up sometime in between to all that crazy stuff. I used to have dreams... now I just live... and I don't know why... I'm not worth it... I'm a failure, I have no place in this world... no body would care if I just disapeered... I've been depressed for near 7 years, suicidal for 5 of those years... things never get better, they just get worse and worse... it's not worth liveing... I'm not worth saveing, please just let me go...
   
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Re: Warning: Extreamly Negitive - November 9th 2009, 07:14 PM

I can totally understand that. have you ever considered mayby taking medication or anything. Sometimes it helps.
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Re: Warning: Extreamly Negitive - November 10th 2009, 02:19 AM

I've actully recently stoped takeing anti-depresants, they were fucking with my head, I leterally felt like I was high on something... Was in withdrawl for a couple weeks after I stoped takeing them and don't plan on trying any again any time soon, and before anyone asks or says so... Sorry if someone already mentioned it... I've been hospitalized before, so I have seen someone I havn't seen anyone in a long time and now that I'm older can't see the people I was seeing though I'm working on seeing someone now but I have to wait.... and OMG I didn't put a single period in this whole post... talk about run on sentances =P anyway... ya so... it'll be awhile before I see someone I... er... short of admiting myself to the hospital, which I am not willing to do, then I'm er... I got nothing now... it hurts being alone... in every way

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Re: Warning: Extreamly Negitive - November 11th 2009, 07:52 PM

Hey just hang in ther ok. Keep talking with us and maybe you will feel better.I am glad that you open up to us. It is better than nothing and you shouldn't be alone.Things will get better hang on.I understand how you are feeling.
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Re: Warning: Extreamly Negitive - November 12th 2009, 01:08 AM

I'm just fadeing away, I can't sleep anymore... and for various reasons I'm in a lot of pain and will be for at least a few weeks more. The sleep I do get is... er... shakey... nightmares, well not nightmares really just... very exited dreams which wake me up, often screaming the last few words I was yelling in my dream, not scary dreams just... they usually wake me up. I've also become nocturnal... again... I usuall get an hour or two of sleep in the after noon, stay up till 4-5 in the morning, then sleep for an hour or two more, the rest of the day... and all of the night, I'm awake, that hurts in ways which are hard to describe... I've lived a fully nocturnal life before but this... this is just... this is some place inbetween where you can't really "live" your life. It's anoying to cause I'm tired all the time and even if I felt like doing something, which I don't..., I don't have the energy to do anything... unless you've been there you can't possibly understand the feeling of just sitting around all day when the strongest thought in your head is always about killing yourself... how worthless you are... and how unloved and alone you are, please don't say "it will be okay" because it wont... not soon enough... not before I just... let go and die... I'm sorry *sigh* your all just trying to help and I just... keep throwing it away... for what it's worth... it's a good feeling to read a reply to this... even if it's not.... helpfull... makes me feel less alone... anyway... I'll just go now
   
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Re: Warning: Extreamly Negitive - November 12th 2009, 11:20 AM

My man, it took me so many tries to get through high school, and it took a therapeutic boarding school to do so, after wilderness programs and many faces with suicide and self harm etc...what I see in you is someone who still has that fire to live because look how long you've been fighting. You want this. You do. and you're meant for it, everyone is. You seem very self-aware which is a really great thing for this, you are worth it. high school is the worst time for most of us, and I promise there is daylight on the other side of the hill, you just gotta keep pushing. As for your best friend and your parents giving up and all of that..I'm truly sorry, i know how it feels to feel on your own and just know you can talk to me or any one of us on this site if you need to, want to or anything, even if you want to talk randomly just to feel that someone is listening to you, i encourage you to do it. I've seen so many fellow kids who took so many "weird" and tough routes through high school like you've described..and graduating with them was the most rewarding feeling ever. You can do it.
   
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Re: Warning: Extreamly Negitive - November 12th 2009, 07:04 PM

Believe me. I know about restless nights and nightmares and all those feelings. I have felt exactly how you feel. I will be here even if all you want to do is chat and nothing else. If you need something more then I will still be here.I won't give up on you. I will stay with you through thick and thin.
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Re: Warning: Extreamly Negitive - November 12th 2009, 07:38 PM

no offence but you obviously do care because your on this and you are talking to us,,,
the reason why people arent leaving you alone is because they are worried about you,, and of corse this life is worth living,,, even though,, at the moment every thing may seem crap and awfull,,, you have to believe that everything is going to get better,, nothing will change if you dont believe
i know that im not really helping but oh well :P

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Re: Warning: Extreamly Negitive - November 13th 2009, 07:05 AM

hey you cant be more worthless than me. failure is the mother of success. your just on a bumpy road that's all. its just a process you go through to become stronger. you might think very little of your self but you are a huge part of some one's life. chris (weird its like calling out to myself) i'll tell you this all i can do is support you that's all. the person who can truly help you is yourself. you might not notice but people bug you because they care. you have to understand this. thus you are not unloved and you are not alone. i really hope this doesnt take negative effect but you feel alone because you dont reach out to people who are giving you a hand. i really hope you can find someone to talk to you should socialise. hang out with your buddies. PLEASE try not to think anyting negative. anything is fine just dont thik about the negative. for example me. its stupid but when i get depressed i yell "i like cheese!!!"until i feel better. because its stupid and it takes my mind off things. you can pm me if you want. so hang in there. i hope you will feel better soon.
   
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Re: Warning: Extreamly Negitive - November 13th 2009, 08:54 PM

like chriz said your not worthless, your just on a bumpy road,
no matter what theres always a higher road,
dream like you never dreamed before,
set new goals, even if your old ones failed you, make new goals to help you achieve your old ones,
because your worth every teear you shed,
your worth more then the sky can shine, your just fallen into lies that you cant get better but theres still hope, and i have faith in you ,
you CAN do this, the deppression can be gone,
if you want it to be,
it's not easy, theres going to be a hard time in life,
but you gotta keep walking ,...
like renee yohe said" were not perfect, we cant just crawl out of your mothers woumb and start walking its not that easy,
but you gotta fight for what you want, because anythign is possible if you set those goals. '' ,
so chirs set those goals make them not that big and make them gorw and i know you can acheieve anything, because nothing is impossible.
i seen legs grow and wrists healed from SH.
i seen things happen that just should cancer gone,
so im sure that your worth something, even if you dont feel it,
your just having a hard experience.
your friends will come back if you show them a reason to.
or you'll find new friends but be sure its the friends you want not to just socialize with/
were human not pperfect.
but im here whenever, and what ever.


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Re: Warning: Extreamly Negitive - November 14th 2009, 01:55 AM

Why should I live... this world is cruel, everyone cares more about there pay cheque then the people around them. No one is willing to do whats right for the world, for there friends, faimly and people they care about. I'm sick of being thowrn around, being the odd one that no one can help, really they can but I lie in a differnt catagory so they all run away cuase they'd need to spend money to help me... It's always like that, 90 percent of the people of the world can live perfectly well the way the world is set up, the other 10 percent get thrown around and cast aside... think about it there friccken 6 billion people in this world! thats a lot of fucken people that no one gives a shit about! If you don't fit in where your sapposed to no one wants to help fix the problem they just say... "it's not are problem get the fuck out" they don't want to admit there little perfect world isn't as perfect as the lies that they try to say to make it look that way... it's not worth liveing in a life where no one cares you exist... I hate this life... I hate myslef... I'm not worth it... god... just... I want to give up so bad, stop makeing me want to hold on
   
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Re: Warning: Extreamly Negitive - November 14th 2009, 07:50 AM

hey dont judge a country by one mans action. maybe you met someone like that but not everyone is. everyone is worth something ya know. im gonna use something that was said in a movie heroes always suceed in the end because they never gave up when they had the chance to turn back. i forgot which movie but seriously. love your self man. in the future you'll be so glad you hanged on at this really painful moment.
   
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Re: Warning: Extreamly Negitive - November 16th 2009, 02:52 PM

We care about you and that is why we want to help. It doesn't cost a thing and I will not give up on you.I care about you and that is why I am here. So people do care about you and you care about you care about yourself. You are worth more than you know. You do know thhat because you asked for help.I know how you feel like an outcast. I have felt like that and sometimes I still do. Then I remember those that care for me like the ones that care for you. Things will get better.
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Re: Warning: Extreamly Negitive - November 17th 2009, 03:57 AM

Spmeone who hasn't seen first hand how this world operates can't possilby understand... Anyway, I can't sleep now... at all =(... My computer has been acting strange but I just kixed it... (I hope =P) So I should be around more... I guess... Don't really want to be though... Don't really want to do anything

Bah guess I just realized it's my birthday tomoro *sigh's saying this with a vary sarcastic tone* oh goy... *goes to hide in a really dark corner*

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Re: Warning: Extreamly Negitive - November 17th 2009, 05:56 AM

hey ya know i maybe younger than you but i know what how this world operates. i went through a lot too. why not share with us whats wrong? i cant really help you if you dont tell me whats going on in your mind. not everyone is like what you say they are. we reply cause we care. and i really do care even though we never met. cause i know what depression is like and i dont want someone else to go through it. no one will know whay you feel or what you think if you dont say it out loud. hang in there.
   
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Re: Warning: Extreamly Negitive - November 17th 2009, 05:57 AM

this is something my friend of mine showed me hope it helps you...



-- written by Max Ehrmann in the 1920s --
Not "Found in Old St. Paul's Church"! -- see below
Go placidly amid the noise and the haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible, without surrender,
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even to the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons;
they are vexatious to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain or bitter,
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs,
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals,
and everywhere life is full of heroism.
Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love,
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment,
it is as perennial as the grass.
Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.
You are a child of the universe
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.
Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be.
And whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life,
   
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Re: Warning: Extreamly Negitive - November 17th 2009, 07:04 PM

Then I understand cause I have seen how the world is and all the crap and such. I am happy that you are still here and keep talking to us.I can like relate to how you feel and really you have no idea and I could tell you loads of stuff. Hang in there ok.
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Re: Warning: Extreamly Negitive - November 17th 2009, 07:31 PM

I just give up... My best friend dosn't know I exsist, I have no life, no friends, no education, no job. I hate life, I'm at the end of my rope, I want to cut deep... just cut and bleed out till I pass out and never wake up... Please just let me go, I can't take it anymore... it's over, I'm going to die... don't try and stop me...
   
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Post Re: Warning: Extreamly Negitive - November 17th 2009, 07:40 PM

I am invovled now and care about you. Things don't have to be this way. They dont. There are people who care about you and you may feel that that is not true but I have been there.Hang in there please. Just Pm me if you need to.I am here for you and will be.
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Re: Warning: Extreamly Negitive - November 17th 2009, 10:48 PM

Great... this day just keeps getting fucken better by the minute ... Kill me now *sigh* If I just disapear don't worrie about me
   
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Post Re: Warning: Extreamly Negitive - November 18th 2009, 07:15 PM

I couldn't just forget about you I care about you.Why is your day so bad.
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Re: Warning: Extreamly Negitive - November 19th 2009, 12:53 AM

It just... It sucks to be alone, It hurts not haveing not haveing anyone... Everyone just not even knowing I exsist. Blah... Anyway, I guess at somepoint your all going to wonder why I feel like this in the first place, you all might want a story... Meh... I'll think about it... Thanks for not giveing up
   
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Post Re: Warning: Extreamly Negitive - November 19th 2009, 07:07 PM

I only want a story if you want to give it. You have me here and I wont give up on you.
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Re: Warning: Extreamly Negitive - November 19th 2009, 07:32 PM

So I guess this is going to be long so I hope whoever reads it actully reads the whole thing, I'm going to go back a long ways, years. Lets start with the begining. The begining, hmmf... I never had an easy life, everyone might argue that noone dose and I'm sure there are worse but thats not really the point. Some things happend when I was a kid that I'll never tell anyone here enless you know me very very well, those things are the deepest and darkest secrets I carry and are mostly irrevenlent to the sitiuation. As I grew up I got susppended from school about once a week, in the worst of it I almost got expeled from my school board, in grade 5 that kinda turned around. It was with the help of a teacher, one of the best men I ever knew. I ended up exeleing while under his wing, I no longer got into trouble, or so incredibly rarely (I did end up getting susppended once every year thereafer =P) anyway, I mainted a extreamly high average and worked hard to maintain it, I did this in the next year as well. I'd been playing music all my life and it was in that time in grade 6 that I started playing orchestra music (which you'll later find is very important) Through grade 7 and 8 I devoted my life to music, My grades sliped a bit but they were normal and I got by, I remained extreamly adapt at math and the sciences as well as an exelent musician (I even ended up with our senior band while I was a juniour). At that point I kinda started feeling bad about letting my grades go the way I was, I guess it was then that my depression really started but It wasn't enough to disrupt my life. I entered grade 9 confident and rather happy actully, though nervous like everyone was I'd expect. It went well and I was doing fine till about november of that year, I fell into a rough depression It drasticly effected my life. I was haveing trouble keeping up but made it though fairly well that year. Grade 10... was a desaster, at that point I really wanted to talk to someone but had no one I trusted enough, I struggled though that year earning I beleave 3 of the 9 credits I was working on. I tried to go back in what would have been my 11th year, I failed epicly, but I had some hope, I stayed in music and I had someone I trusted enough to talk to at this point so I had my friend give her a letter from me detailing how I felt, I was much to afraid to give it to her myself. She was my teacher and at that point I had know her since I started highschool (start of 3rd year so 2 years for those who want to get techinicle =P I've always counted years in school years when talking about school friends/teachers and some people think thats stupid =P). After giveing that note to my friend and disapearing she tracked me down about an hour later, we talked and of course a lot of people (guidence coulcilour princeiple... parents) found out about this. That year went on untill she ended up getting me help. I also made a good friend in that time. I ended up in a Voulentary hospitilztion programe which went well throughout the rest of the year untill the day I had to leave school for summer break, I completely freaked out... School was my safe place, I had people I trusted there that cared about me (some perhaps just because they were obligated to ...) anyway... I ended up sleeping through the whole summer break and never going back to the hospital (volentary programe) so they had to let me go becuase I wasn't comited to the programe. Durning all that I had tried to go back to school a few times, (when secnond semester came, and looked into online courses a few times ) that failed epicly. The next year... I felt a little better and thought I might handle going back to school fulltime... I lasted 3 days... Again I stayed in music throughout the year tried to go back a few more times failing epicly those times as well and then came second semester, I had some confindence back and decided to take a vary light course load and try again. It was going very well untill a very... um... interesteing point the details of that are a story in inself but I couldn't stay after that so I left... I left school... I left music... I left everything. My best friend who knew how I was feeling and was trying to help me was there for me the whole time, I ended up getting a job and that went well for about 2 months... then I started really really depressed, couldn't even focus on the work I was doing I had to leave before I got hurt of hurt someone else (was working heavy equipment) the whole time my friend was by my side and she got me to start takeing meds to see if it would help, it seemed to but now life was harder, no school, no job... anyway, about 3 months ago I was talking to my friend and I really needed her at that point, she did her best to help me but growing helpless not knowing what to do as she saw me just continue to get worse, I know that hurt her a lot... One night we got in a huge fight, her boyfriend was comming down to visit (long distance relationship) she said that we wouldn't be able to talk for 2 weeks and that freaked me out... I didn't know If I'd last that long without my best friend by my side, the fight went on and some very hurtfull things were said but we forgave each other that night. The next morning I called her her boyfriend was there, he texted me "She dosn't want to talk to you, Leave her alone and never bother her again" well... um... ya... I came back here that day, I had been here before many years before, I didn't sleep for like 3 days after that... over the week that followed I tried to kill myself 7 times, I cut like crazy, and I was haveing anxiety attacks like 3 times a day. That took eveything I had to get through... I talked to my friend on the 3rd day (the day I actully got some sleep, that was after I talked to her) my heart knew she cared but her boyfriend was being selfish so... she talked to me... talked to me again a few times... her boyfriend left back home... we talked a bit more... then we agreed to work on our friendship... and then hey... I havn't talked to her in like a month, She was not just my best friend... she was one of the last friends I have left... and now... even If I still consider her a friend... Indeed my best friend, I don't know how she see's me... *sigh* anyway... During the span of my life which I've depressed (7 years 5 of which I was suicidal for) every slowly gave up on me... my friends... my faimly... Even the fucken doctors who are sapposed to help ITS THERE FUCKEN JOB!... I feel so lonely... I'm a failure... my life... it's worthless... This cruel world isn't worth liveing in... *starts to cry a bit* I'm so fucken lonely now... and... I really miss my best friend *crys hard* I'm sorry... I guess thats what everyone wanted to know then hmm... heres the story... I can't really elaborate on it much... to me all of this... this is why I'm so fucken depressed... nay... suicidal... I've failed at life... I'm lonely... and no cares... It's not worth a life like that, It hurts to much to live... *sigh* I don't know why I live... guess I care about people... I certainly care about people more then myself... I don't want to hurt them... but it hurts so so much *crys* sorry it's so long... sorry for being stupid... and wasteing everyones time...
   
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Post Re: Warning: Extreamly Negitive - November 19th 2009, 08:19 PM

I am so sorry things got like that. I have been there, mabye not as long but I have gone through something like that. I am glad that you shared the story. I am here if you ever need anyone.i am glad you are here and trying to help yourself cause the only way for aomeone to help you is if you want help and you do so things will get better one day.It just might take awile. As far as the story being so long that is great cause you need to get that out of your system and it didn't waste my time at all.I care about you as a person and want to see that things get better for you. I hope that you hang onto that love of music. I love it so much...Anyway. I will chat with you later.
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Re: Warning: Extreamly Negitive - November 21st 2009, 11:06 PM

My computer is acting wierd... So I might not be around as much... please dont give up on me...
   
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Re: Warning: Extreamly Negitive - November 22nd 2009, 04:09 AM

we're not going to give up on you....
   
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Re: Warning: Extreamly Negitive - November 22nd 2009, 06:10 AM

When you were born, there was no one around to tell you that life was easy. That you were going to be able to excel just by being alive.

What you need to understand is that, while it may not be apparent, there will always be people who care about you. Hell, I'm up at 1:01 AM reading through your posts, because I care about what happens to you. I don't know want you to go and kill yourself. I know that everyone here on this planet has worth, we are all here to do something.

You know from first hand experience that life isn't easy. There are moments where we feel as if everything is crashing down around us, and there's no support left. Nothing to save us. But when you think for a moment, you have to realize that you're still alive. You are still standing. And you need to know that life is worth living. It is worth living for the people around you. It is worth living for the lives of the people that you have touched, mine included in that long list. Most of all, it is worth living because you deserve the simple joys of waking up and taking in the beauty of the skies, birds singing, animals playing, music, sounds, noises, silence, beautiful girls and handsome men.

Because you are alive, you affect others. You're affecting me right now. You are giving me ammunition to change other's lives. And through your experiences of failure, you can pass what you know on to others to help them succeed, which in turn makes you a winner as well.

You are a beautiful soul.

Look inside yourself and find the beauty that lies within. You say you have a passion for music. Share that passion with the world. Practice your chops, write songs, play shows, teach. That's what I do.

I use my passion for music to pass on the message to the world that life is worth living. Every minute, every second of everyday. Breathe, and enjoy the simple pleasures that come with being alive. Know that there are people who care. Who love. Who cherish knowing you.

Know that I love you unconditionally as a human-being.

And I would love to you know as a person.

Chin up, chest out, eyes straight. Face the day knowing that you can make each day better than the last. There will always be ups and downs, and it will never be easy. But you can make it better, and hopefully be able to deal with your problems better and better.

You are a beautiful person.

And I mean that every time I say it.
   
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Post Re: Warning: Extreamly Negitive - November 23rd 2009, 06:58 PM

Dont worry we wont give up on you. We are here for you and will support you. Take care.
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Re: Warning: Extreamly Negitive - November 25th 2009, 07:33 AM

Hmmf... Aparently I'm still alive *sigh* Anyway... I wish I could get to know some of you better but... I'm never around... and when I am... I usually don't stay around for long... I don't think I ever did care about er... well maybe I did once buy I'm to depressed to worrie about how I end this post... *leaves it just like that*
   
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Re: Warning: Extreamly Negitive - November 28th 2009, 06:01 AM

Ok im going to be straight up with you hun, you need to pull yourself out of this place your in, there is a way through and i am extremely happy that you psted in this forum cos by posting it shows you want help even though you may not admit it, please find a prefessional who can help you get the support you so badly want and deserve.

Take care, we all truely care about you on here and are here to support you
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Re: Warning: Extreamly Negitive - November 29th 2009, 04:34 AM

gah... why?! ='( I'll just fucken keep liveing in this stupid fucken cruel world feeling like I'm dead, why the fuck can't I just fucken die!? ='(
   
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