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What is wrong with me? - April 28th 2011, 10:45 PM

After several hours of trying to talk myself out od it, I cut myself again. Not quite deep enough for stitches this time luckily. I'm really strugling not to go deeper and cut through the vein though. I want to die. I hate myself so much. I don't know how to fix this. I don't knwo what to do. I'm so miserable. my anti depressants have been increased so I'm on the highest dose available from my GP and i'm still feeling like this. I honestly don't think I'm ever going to get better. I'm so, so sorry to all of you that have wasted your time on me.
   
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Re: What is wrong with me? - April 28th 2011, 11:00 PM

Have you spoke to your doctor about your struggle, they might think the A/D don't work and try a different one.. I am sorry you are feeling so bad and its good to hear that you didn't cut deeper this time.. Keep fighting..
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Re: What is wrong with me? - April 28th 2011, 11:06 PM

I've been on 5 other ones and none have worked. I've started doing solvents now haha I'm a complete mess. I'm better off dead.
   
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Re: What is wrong with me? - April 28th 2011, 11:08 PM

You need to keep trying different meds till you find the right one for you.. Please don't do anything bad cos death is not the answer, people would be upset and miss you..
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Re: What is wrong with me? - April 28th 2011, 11:15 PM

Ella, let me tell you that you don't always find the right medication the first time... or the second time... or the third time... or the fourth... or the fifth... I'm on my sixth medication, and I'm seeing actual progress.
Please, be patient- you never know what's going to happen tomorrow!! Some things take time, and when you finally get what you need, it will be so, so, so sweet. We love you! We care about you! PM me anytime you need me(:
   
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Re: What is wrong with me? - April 28th 2011, 11:22 PM

I can't cope. I can't wait anymore. I don't want to be patient. I just want to get messed up and die. I can't get better. It's clearly impossible. It won't ever happen. I don't deserve it.
   
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