I just need some support right now

[Anonymous19]

I'm really fucking losing it right now, and I'm on the brink of crying my eyes out. I'm dealing with depression, I'm trying to become more social with people and going out more which isn't working too well. I'm trying to just change my life around since I tried to kill myself. None of the things I want to do aren't changing. I just lost someone I deeply care about. It was a long distance thing and we were trying our best to make it work but in the end it wasn't, and then other people came into the picture which was killing me but it also makes sense given the distance. Now I'm trying my best to meet other people. With all the shit I'm trying to do, it just sucks that my heart is broken as well, I can't take this at all. She was my first love and I just feel like the world is caving in on me, and feel really lost as well. I'm going to cut tonight because I can't see anything else I can do to get through it. I'm just really fucking hurting badly, I really need someone to say things will get better or a fucking hug or something, please!

[rescueisnotamyth]

**hug**

first, take a deep breath... now let it out.

what all is going on?

check out the distractions stickie.

why do you need cutting to make you feel better? why is that you are feeling this way?

[ChloeBean]

-hugs-
Things will get better. I know it doesn't seem like it now, but they will. I'm sorry you're so hurt. Pm me if you wanna talk.

[Anonymous19]

I'm just putting so much pressure on myself to be outgoing but its not working and I feel like a failure. Like on Friday night I was hanging out with this girl in my class and we went to a bar where this band was playing, and next thing I knew she was making out with the lead singer and getting felt up, while I was there feeling like shit. And this long distance shit was the only good thing I had going but she was living her life as well and that means she was seeing other guys. I didn't want to hold her back but at the same time it keeps killing me that this shit is going on around me. I feel like a loser, I feel ugly. And at least with the cutting I can distract my self from the pain, and get through the day.

[lizardowashere]

awwww, *really very big hug* things will get better just sometimes things have to get worse before you get better. It can be hard though, but you just have to forget your last step and dont look forward to the next just focus on the one now. I dont know if yo uare relgious and if you are.... God made you specail and put you on this earth for a reason and everything that happens to you happens for a reason. not just any reason but a good reason. I hope things get better for you and you are in my prayers

[rescueisnotamyth]

don't force yourself to be outgoing. you'll only end up regretting it in the end. just be yourself... even if that means being a little shy. i've had to work through the same thing. if you try an be outgoing then you'll only get mad at yourself for could've should've would've's and will find that it didn't help.

**uber big hug**

[Justin Bieber]

*hugs*
Try to take a deep breath, relaxing can really help. Even laying down with a warm/cold washcloth on your forehead can help a lot.

Long distance relationships are hard to make work. I am sure you both tried really hard, but a lot of the time, it just gets too complicated. You are not the only one out there that has lost someone via long distance relationships. I know she was your first love, which makes it hard, but she was your first! You have so many more people out there to date. Take however long you need to get over this girl, but remember that there are many more out there like her or more suited for you to date! You don't need to force yourself to be more outgoing, but it might help to put yourself out there and make some new friends. Find the joys in life. Focus on the positives, not the negatives. You are a great person and just because this relationship didn't work out doesn't mean you can't find someone else, or that nothing else will work out.

You can get through this, cutting won't help you though. Stick to talking it out or other alternatives (there is a large list of them here on the site). Alternatives/Distractions can really help

I hope you feel better soon,
Message me anytime
-Amy

[Anonymous19]

Yeah, I guess. I'm just so worked up with this break up, even if it was kind of hard in the first place. She was really special to me, and I hate these fucking waves that keep coming right now. Working tonight is going to be hard too.

[L'espoir]

Hi,

Does this girl know how you are feeling? If she does then it doesnt seem like she is the right person for you. If she doesnt then maybe its worth telling her? You never know after all she could like you too. It sounds as though she does like you if she asked you to come out wiht her. If your not naturally outgoing then try not to force yourself to be. Its really good that your trying to turn things around, just keep trying. I think things will get better eventually.

Jen
x

[Anonymous19]

I'm kind of proud that I made it through the night with out cutting. But yeah, I don't know. Its been messy lately. I don't know if she likes me, I'm not really the rocker type. I'm just a regular dude. I'm just trying to stop dwelling on the past and try to accept things as how they are and try to move forward from there. But its still hard, you know?