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It will never leave me. It will never go away. - June 21st 2011, 08:32 AM

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All I can say is,
It's not supposed to stick like this.
But it does.
Mental.
Hospital.
They'll come for me soon enough for sure.
They'll lock me up how they did those 2 years ago.
Wherever I venture to, wherever I run away, They will be there chasing me.
How they chase me now.
I will run and hide.
So many nightmares.
So many seizures.
So many hallucinations.
I can't contain it.
Ending up finding myself searching desperately for it.
For an answer.
Find myself looking at it.
At There.
And wondering
When will they catch me?
And I've had it with it.
The only way to let it go, let it all go,
Is to end the mind that is causing all of this.
Unplug it from its only source,
And end the being that causes rage, this mess I always do.
This is small, insignificant to many.
But in my world, it consumes everything.


THE POINT OF SINGULARITY IS NOTHING AS NOTHING BEGAN EVERYTHING
PULSING IN THE EXPAND CONSUME WITHOUT BARRIER OR BORDER
IT IS DARK BECAUSE IT IS THE DARKNESS IT IS OVER BECAUSE IT IS THE END
THERE IS NO SENTRY BECAUSE NONE DARE APPROACH
IT HAS NEVER BEEN AND IT IS ALL THAT EVER WAS
AT THE CENTER YOU DO NOT FIND THE ANSWER
YOU DO NOT FIND YOURSELF THERE IS NO CENTER AND THERE IS NO YOU THERE IS ONLY MADNESS
WE ARE ALL HERE NOW.
WE ARE ALL HERE.
WE ARE.

   
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Re: It will never leave me. It will never go away. - June 21st 2011, 06:06 PM

wow, is this something you have written as expression or soemthing you aheve experienced? its really moving. do you want to PM me? <3 please dont feel liek that. the people were trying to help ? xxx


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make them like you instead
   
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