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I do not think this is the right place for me. - July 20th 2011, 01:22 AM

Teenhelp. You are a wonderful place with wonderful people..but perhaps you are not for me.

I mean this not with a sense of spite or as an attempt to attack you. I truly feel I am beyond any form of help. Or that I even need help at all.

The nightmares have returned. The hospital has shattered my mind and I wake every night sweating and crying from that place. The psychs that were supposed to help me have lied to me. I can not trust them. I have stopped all my meds because they are all tools to take away my voices, they are all just lies.

I do not belong anywhere or with anyone. I have no true friends, for none know the real me and the few that do have abandoned me. I do not know my own family, they pretend I'm all fine and that this is all a fabrication I created for some fun.

I am honestly just a calculated error of the gene pool. People like me should not exist. Beyond that, as one, I truly no longer desire to be alive. It is full of joy, yes. But with it comes too much suffering, the likes of which I no longer desire to push through. I'm rather tired of this. All of this. I was outcast by everyone I ever went to, and those that try to accept me fail, to no fault of their own, I am simply too different to like.

No, I think my time has about come. I always had a feeling I had an early expiration date. I'll wait for a few replies, see what people think of my decision. Afterwords, I will consult the voices and come to a final conclusion. They all seem to agree in part with me. We all desire to be free of this world.

So, Teenhelp, what say you?


Slowly, the people collected, amassing a vast number of bodies before him. And yet still, he waited until there was no point to waiting further. Now was the moment he stalled for not days, not months, but years. Raising his hand to into the air, he summoned fourth a unison cry.

"And let them fear who we have become. Let them wish they were among us. Let them run or submit. And let them know we can not be stopped. For we have become Legion. And we will never die."
   
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Re: I do not think this is the right place for me. - July 20th 2011, 01:56 AM

Everybody is different and that is what makes us so great. Be proud of it and embrace it, I know you can do it. I personally think that you are wonderful and I think you should stick around. Don't be too quick to give up. Everybody falls sometimes but I know you can get back up again. Please don't be afraid to PM me. <3
   
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Re: I do not think this is the right place for me. - July 20th 2011, 03:08 AM

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Everybody is different and that is what makes us so great. Be proud of it and embrace it, I know you can do it. I personally think that you are wonderful and I think you should stick around. Don't be too quick to give up. Everybody falls sometimes but I know you can get back up again. Please don't be afraid to PM me. <3
Dear Kimmi, I have been planning to "give up" for several years now. I fear my time is short.


Slowly, the people collected, amassing a vast number of bodies before him. And yet still, he waited until there was no point to waiting further. Now was the moment he stalled for not days, not months, but years. Raising his hand to into the air, he summoned fourth a unison cry.

"And let them fear who we have become. Let them wish they were among us. Let them run or submit. And let them know we can not be stopped. For we have become Legion. And we will never die."
   
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Re: I do not think this is the right place for me. - July 20th 2011, 03:29 AM

Nobody's time is short. Life isn't meant to be cut short. You have so much to live for. It may seem rough now but it always gets better. It is worth it to keep fighting. For three years of my life I felt it was the right time to give up and let go of everything. I felt it was my time to die and it was my time to give people "what they wanted". Until I realized something important: It was my time to live and what people wanted was for me to come up out of my slump and love my life. You will too, in your own time. Keep getting through it and you may surprise yourself.
   
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Re: I do not think this is the right place for me. - July 20th 2011, 04:19 AM

Perhaps it is not I that is unfit for the world. Perhaps the world is unfit for me. Maybe they are the ones who need "fixing".


Slowly, the people collected, amassing a vast number of bodies before him. And yet still, he waited until there was no point to waiting further. Now was the moment he stalled for not days, not months, but years. Raising his hand to into the air, he summoned fourth a unison cry.

"And let them fear who we have become. Let them wish they were among us. Let them run or submit. And let them know we can not be stopped. For we have become Legion. And we will never die."
   
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Re: I do not think this is the right place for me. - July 20th 2011, 10:02 AM

I can be your friend. PM me anytime, I'll even give you my email maybe we can IM?
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Re: I do not think this is the right place for me. - July 21st 2011, 02:00 AM

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I can be your friend. PM me anytime, I'll even give you my email maybe we can IM?
You are fast to give your trust, friend. It gives one pause if you know what you agree to.


Slowly, the people collected, amassing a vast number of bodies before him. And yet still, he waited until there was no point to waiting further. Now was the moment he stalled for not days, not months, but years. Raising his hand to into the air, he summoned fourth a unison cry.

"And let them fear who we have become. Let them wish they were among us. Let them run or submit. And let them know we can not be stopped. For we have become Legion. And we will never die."
   
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