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I been really suicidal I have attempted it today and I been sick before with stomach cramps not once a month ones but I just can't take being sick all this stuff and my step mom makes it worse and I feel all alone mo one totalk to I feel unwanted by anyone I dont know who ti go to anymore anything I do it's wrong I try to have fun and I come home and I did something wrong I always do and I get yelled at I'm tires if it I hate my life yeah they will care if I'm gone but for once I want to be happy I'm never happy anymore I do t know what happy is I just want someone to care around this house freakin 8ppl and no one bothers to see I'm sick and in pain ugh
Life is too
Short to spend
It at war with
(n.) the inability to distinguish between fantasy and reality
You don't always do things wrong and you most definitely aren't alone! There are always people to talk to.
You say you've attempted suicide today? Please call someone. You could have done terrible damage to your body and you need some help, beautiful.
Have you tried talking to someone about these feelings? A parent or friend might be the best way to start. Or if you feel like you can't do that, seeing a medical professional would be a great step in the right direction. They will be able to help you so much! It's not going to be easy, but the earlier you get on the track to recovery the better.
Think about all of the amazing reasons to live. Think of all the people you'd miss and how much they'd miss you.
It seems you're really struggling right now and i just want to say i'm here if you need anything.
I'm sorry to hear people didn't help when you told them what you'd done- it must have taken a lot of courage. Did you tell anyone else about the attempt? If you haven't then i would really advise you seek medical help.
Charli already sent you the 'reasons to live' thread and if you haven't checked it out already i really suggest you take a look.
I don't really know what you mean when you say you've started all your old habits, but i do think it would be good if you talked about that with someone. It seems like you've been feeling this way for a long time so if you're not already getting any support i think it would be a good idea. You don't have to be alone Coco, and there are lots of people who would want to help you whilst you're feeling like this.
If you want to talk about anything then please shoot me a PM. I hope you're feeling better.