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Lisa - August 14th 2011, 06:24 AM

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Today would have been Lisa's seventeenth birthday....

She was my best freind's...Russell's niece..

She was murdered..along with her grandfather,her mother,her aunt and her uncle.

And right now i dont know how to feel....at this point i dont want to feel...period....

I just miss her sooo bad..its tearing me apart...and i cant do anything about it...

So i guess mabye i should start from the begining....

Lisa Wilcox was born on August 13,1993...I first met her in 1994...when she was nine months old...And ever since then we had a very close freindship...i even told my mother that i wanted a baby..and i wanted a girl just like her...


And then as she got older....She would always answer the phone when i called.And she was the niceest ,sweetest person you would ever meet in your life.She had everything going for her..

Untill that cold dark morning on april 10th 2007.....

She would have been in high school....She would have had her first kiss..She would have dated the high school football quarterback,the class president...even the school nerd...because thats the type of person that she was...

But now..she will never get to live out those dreams,I never thought in a millon years that something like this could ever happen to me.

She had soooo much ahead of her...she had soooo much to live for..

And in one split second...her life was over...And now i have to live with this for the rest of my life.

She didnt deserve to die...she didnt deserve to end up this way.She never did anything to have something like that happen to her and her family.

A very big part of me wishes to god that i would have never have moved away from him when he needed me..i wish to god i could have talked him out of this...

i just want to kill myself really bad right now...if anyone deserves to die...its me...

i just cant do this...i just cant
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Re: Lisa - August 14th 2011, 12:53 PM

Drew,

I know things have been hard for you, and life hasn't exactly treated you well lately, but you CAN do this. You friend would not want you to feel this way. It's a tragedy, I know, and I am so sorry for what has happened, but your life doesn't stop here. It's going to be hard, but you're going to have to keep going. I know at times it can seem impossible to carry on living when someone so close to you didn't get the chance, and I know you feel it's unfair that she was taken and not you, but you're grieving, and that process can go on for a long time, but it's not something impossible to get through. I'd advise you to talk to people about it, let them help you and let them support you. Going through this alone is one of the worst things you could do because it will only make you feel worse, and lonely. You need to let people help you in order to get helped. I believe in you, and you should believe in yourself. Life is worth living when you find the things to live for, and once you do, you can be so happy. Look here: http://www.teenhelp.org/forums/f11-d...-reasons-live/ The little things are worth it. Think about these things and let yourself smile. You'll find that if you just let yourself be happy, you will be, and it will be easier to be happy. You can do this, Drew, I know you can.

Keep your chin up,
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Re: Lisa - August 15th 2011, 02:28 PM

Remember it wasn't your fault. Everyone has their time on this earth but its not your time. Please remember that. There are some alternative methods instead of cutting. I think you will like some of them just as I do. Remember to keep strong. We believe you can get past this. I'm sorry for Lisa, it wasnt her time. Ask yourself this. Would Lisa want you to give up? NO she wouldnt. Please stay strong. Good luck.
   
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Re: Lisa - August 16th 2011, 08:26 AM

i just miss her sooo bad
i want to be with her so badly..

i cant do this alone
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Re: Lisa - August 16th 2011, 10:14 PM

hun you listen to me. lisa would not want you to feel this way. she wouldn't want you to necessarily move on, maybe just realize that things happen for a reason. things fall apart so something better can fall together, life gets messy so that we appreciate the good when it comes. please sweetheart its gonna get better. you have to trust in me. trust that it won't stay like this forever. please?


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Re: Lisa - August 20th 2011, 07:00 AM

*crying hard*
i cant do this anymore
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Re: Lisa - August 20th 2011, 07:08 AM

you can.

the dead never leave us. And ya know, lisa's going to smile if you stay strong and try to be happy too. let her resolve and strength be yours. She'll be happy, and she'll definitely never leave.
   
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Re: Lisa - August 20th 2011, 02:03 PM

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i cant do this anymore
drew, we will help you. you aren't alone in this. you can make it through. <3


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Re: Lisa - August 22nd 2011, 08:13 AM

why did she have to die..
she didnt ask to be murdered
an innocent 13 year old girl is dead
it should have been me

even wrote a song in her memory

if he had it in himself to kill someone..why didnt he fucking kill me
after all i deserve it anyways

sorry for everything
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Re: Lisa - August 22nd 2011, 01:54 PM

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why did she have to die..
she didnt ask to be murdered
an innocent 13 year old girl is dead
it should have been me

even wrote a song in her memory

if he had it in himself to kill someone..why didnt he fucking kill me
after all i deserve it anyways

sorry for everything
don't ever be sorry hun. you are just expressing your feelings. i can only imagine what you are going through, nobody should ever have to go through that. maybe he didn't kill you because there is something you are meant to do in life. you are so brave sweetheart don't ever forget that <3


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Re: Lisa - August 22nd 2011, 03:51 PM

You say you don't want to feel. I can understand you, never feeling would make it all so easy. But to stay who you are you need to feel, like never before. You need to express you, like no one has ever seen you.

I will have a difficult time giving you any advice, as you are the one in pain, not me. But you need something to live for and not die in vain. You can still have a baby girl, just like her. Live for the love for her, and express your love in everything you do.
   
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Re: Lisa - August 24th 2011, 11:18 AM

everytime i think of her..it makes me want to cry..
which is all the time
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Re: Lisa - August 24th 2011, 02:10 PM

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everytime i think of her..it makes me want to cry..
which is all the time
i know its hard to lose someone you love. the pain never really goes away. you just learn how to remember the good times you had with her instead of how much you miss her <3 she would want you to be happy


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Re: Lisa - August 28th 2011, 04:28 AM

this is the song i wrote for Lisa

"i miss you so much"

once upon a time
i knew this girl
she was my freind

still recall
her smile
how it hurt so bad the day..she died

i dont how to say goodbye

{{{{chorus}}}}

I miss you so much
more then words can say
i miss you so much
more then life itself
i miss you so much

I just wish
that you were here
i'll never be the same

all she ever wanted
was a freind
i knew i should have said..i love you
now i'll never have that chance

{{{{repeat chorus}}}

i never thought that this would happen
i have been so lost without you
the only thing that keeps me here..is you

I just miss you so much
more then words can say
more then life itself

i just miss you so much
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