It's all my fault

[Ella.x]

I'm sick of this. It's too much. Things would be so much more simple if I could just keep my goddamn legs closed. I had a party on saturday and I think I had sex with my ex-boyfriends best friend. I don't remember though, I was so drunk. My ex has been telling everyone that I had sex with his friend and now theyre arguing. I had people phoning me all day yesterday wanting to know whether I did or not, but I honestly can't remember. The guy texted me and told me not to tell anyone, so I'm guessing that we did have sex. His girlfriend phoned me yesterday too :/ I feel so awful. I do stuff like this all the time. I want to kill myself. Nothing is going right and now I've caused so much shit. I can't do this anymore. There is so much going through my head right now. All I want to do is die. I need help. I can't carry on like this. I'm sorry

[Mr.Cat]

Hey, Ella.... it must be tough now. I personally haven't gone through what you gone through but I kind of understand that you are facing some huge mess ...

You know, it might not be the best of advice but do try to not let this get to you too much. I know you must felt like shit right now but don't try to go suicide now because that is so not worth it. If you feel like you can't keep your legs closed when you are not sober then don't go to parties and drink. If you are someone that is prone to peer pressure then please by all means, draw a clear line... I know that is a hard thing to do because peer pressure really kills lots of things for me too.

Try to talk things through with someone, or in here, you could find lots of people that wants to help...

I hope that you will be better soon...

[Darrenboy!]

hey ella.

the most important thing is that , you have to forget about this . this is in no way your fault, and you shouldnt feel so bad about this.you just have to change some things.. like.. try not to get drunk. I'm sure you can do this... and besides that, remember you always got us to support you

and besides that, maybe its time for a change of pastime. maybe watching movies, simple outings and a book will help change the pace of life.. i think that doing that will help change a lot of things one good book that i recommend is Marley and Me. It's funny and it's touching to boot recommended!

always remember you got our support.

[Prozac]

Ella,

We all do things that we regret. Many people have been drunk before and have done things that we later regret. Everyone makes mistakes at some point or another. We all learn from our mistakes, too. Now that you've made this mistake, you're paying for it in guilt right now which is teaching you not to do it next time. You are in control of your future, you do not have to do this again. You may have got yourself in an unpleasant situation right now, but things are resolvable and things can be said and done and time will pass for you to try and forget about the incident. Whatever mistake you make in your life, you will be able to work around it. Nothing is worth killing yourself over. You may feel as though you want to die right now but if you did, you'd be throwing everything away over one mistake. Don't be sorry. We're all human.

Stephanie