Severely Suicidal, please help!

[Robin]

6 years of continous dips into suicide.

lifes took its turn and now im empty and at the bottom, i dont want to leave my mum upset, but after loosing my life source i am finally going to take the plunge into death. Its taken me a long time and ive tried to tell people in the past to try and find some way of preventing it, None have helped.

I have helped people and i have dissapointed people, i have caused conflict and i have spread love through it all my mind is burning.

Incase you are wondering what is so bad that i want to do this, i sacrificed friends for a girl who told me she loved me, but then when it came to it....nothing, i lost it all and over the years i have lost so much that i love, i no longer feel a beating in my heard, only my brain telling me it wants to live no more. I shall pass and i doubt anything in this sorry world can change.

Much love

[*Learningtobreathe*]

PLEASE......... i won't try to save you as you requested but please think twice about this.......... please..........

[Robin]

6 years was long enough to think, and constant regret of everything including and especially not killing myself is enough thinking

Ive had my time on this planet and far more signs than are needed to tell me its time, All the people i love have now started ignoring me and disowning me....i hope they dont feel guilty....then again what can i do? i tried

[alibear101]

hey there.
i can only imagine how you are feeling right now. it hurts so much when the one you love promises you that he/she will never leave and then stabs you in the back and leaves you. your friends are not your friends if they will not help you and take you in as if you never left. you do not deserve to die, you are sweet, kind and caring person. as hard as it may be the pain will get better. i will not try and save you, i just want you to know that you are cared about by so many people and by leaving this world you would leave so many people devastated and heart broken. i hope that you feel better, please dont hesitate to pm me because i would love to talk to you robin <3

[Robin]

Will people accept that this is what i wanted? that im happier that way, i know i will be, i no longer want to suffer at the hands of my own mind. i want everyone to know 100% that its what i wanted and its what i needed, everyone has a purpose and mines not in this life

What makes this better is even though im doing it......people are still pushing me forward, i want them to stop or else there going to feel worse when im gone......i dont want my one true love to feel bad when im gone...i just want to be a memory

Its stupid, she thinks i was just saying it.......that i just want attention, what a sad misunderstanding

[Robin]

Update

as i recentley spoke to someone on here about my thoughts and feelings i then came around to perhaps thinking about not doing this, but after a stern kick back to reality and now my plans for suicide are back on track.

[david2357]

dont commit suicide. come on you are 20 years old. you can go spontaneously book a flight to south america to see the amazon river and the atacama desert. you can go to arizona and see the grand canyon, you can go to dubai and see an amazingly beautiful city. you can drop everything right this moment and go see the pyramids. you can fly down and see Machu pichu or the remnants of the mayan world, you can go to hawaii. And once winter comes u can see the long polar night in north alaska where it will be nighttime for several weeks straight.

[Kate*]

Robin, I've been in your shoes, and believe me it isn't worth it. I know you want out of this, but you don't have to die to get out of it. I suffered for 10 years before it finally got better, but you won't just snap out of it. You have to ask for help from professionals and work hard at it. I know you don't believe you can do it, but you can. If part of you didn't want help you wouldn't have posted here at all.

[Machista]

6 years..i have a similar problem with you there.Im living in the same apartment of the girl i used to had a crush on for 14 years and i still cant bear to see her face.i know how you feel and i think we should share the pain.dont commit suicide.let people hear you out.if u need ill gladly talk to you,and im sure most people in this site would love to do so too.but please suicide is just plain.......wrong....it hurts yes but people come and people go.Trying to suicide alone is depressing enough for the family yet friends,but attempting it and fail will cause you to have a severe trauma(self experience..). so please were here to hear you out....stay positive and let time be the remedy.and friends around here too.