Too embarassed to talk about depression

[limegreen44]

I'm so depressed I can't do this anymore. *I need help. I always tell myself I'm gonna tell someone tomorrow, but I just can't find a way to say it. I feel to embarassed to talk about depression, cutting, and suicide.*I do trust one person and wish I could say something but I'm afraid that person won't understand me or will treat me different because they'll feel sorry for me or something. My grades are so low now, I've totally screwed up my life and I see no future for myself. I've been holding everything in for about 3 years and I just can't take it anymore. No one knows I'm depressed. *I want out more than anyone can imagine. I hate myself and everything I've become. I do the bare minimum to pass so I can play sports. I'll fail a test and I won't even be disappointed, or even feel anything, it's like I'm numb. I can sit and stare at schoolwork for hours and I just feel so miserable I can't do it. *Lately I don't even have much desire to play sports anymore.*Girls on my team hate me, exclude me, and won't even talk to me, I just don't get it. And now everything is my fault. I would be doing everyone a favor if I killed myself.

I feel like I don't know what's going on with me anymore. Like I just don't care about anything anymore. I've lost all motivation to do anything. I'm confused and I just can't explain how I feel. I have*nothing to look foward to.

[John Osborne]

1. You will NOT be doing anyone a favor, and certainly not youself
2. Most depressed people are extreamly bright they just don't put forth effort.
3. Grades do not determine success in life. Determination determines success and you will get your determination back.
4.Go tell your parents/gaurdian about it right now. Don't think about it just go do it.

I was depressed for 6 years and attempted suicide. It will get better, I promise.

[Ripdallas]

i understand exactly where u are , i wont say exactly because im not you and i hate when people tell me that .... but ill say that i understand better than most ... i understand that noone but you will ever understand and its soooooooooo frustrating when u cant find anyone to talk to because u just wish someone would care enough to ask or to listen to what you have to say ... its hard to live in the world today without a shoulder to lean on the world will tear u apart and it will bring u to the edge everyday.. ive been where u are the lack of motivation or drive to do anything because u just dont care anymore because nothing u do matters and everything u do just hurts someone else u cant seem to do anything right and u just feel like your death wouldnt matter to anyone... as far as academics go ... its okay the quality of your life is not determined by ur grades just because society says u need to do this or that to have a good life , doesnt mean you actually have to life is what you make it ... you can still have a beautiful future if u choose to .... as far as anything else in your life u havent shared i know its hard to trust someone you dont know .... or maybe ittl be easier for you knowing youll probablly never meet me and ill never treat you differently because ive been there ... but id like to help anyway i can so please contact me ..... life is too precious of a thing to waste <3

[Some Dude]

I just wanted to say you would not be doing the world a favor if you killed yourself, you dont realise how much people would miss you if you did.
Im embaressed to talk about my problems also, my best friend is the only person who knows im depressed, and he doesnt even know I SH, ive been trying to get the nerve to tell him. I hope I do soon...