Best friend committed suicide, I don't really know where to go from here

[94kirkpatrick]

My best friend took her life last Tuesday. I was on the verge of doing it too when I found out, I was losing my mind and I feel like I still am. Every day, I wake up hoping and praying like crazy, before I even open my eyes, that I'll see a text from her on my phone, or that I won't see any farewells or heart breaks on her Facebook wall, but just another silly status update. I feel like I'm going crazy. We had been best friends for 4-5 years, and now, she's just not here anymore. My heart is completely broken, I have cried every day, every morning I wake up, and every night as I fall asleep. I feel like a piece of me is no longer there, and that piece was my heart. Without your heart, you can't live, and that's how I've felt during this past week. I don't know how to keep going or functioning. My whole body aches and is sore, I have a constant headache that I just have gotten used to, and there's this cold darkness inside of me that wont go away. I've prayed to God every day, and I know He's there, but that brings me little comfort knowing she is not. I miss her so much, I dont know what to do anymore.

[Ghost On The Highway]

I've been sitting here for 10 minutes trying to think of something to say...I guess there's nothing that can be said to take the pain away If you want to talk, let me know and I can at least try to help.

I'm praying for you, and when you feel the night closing in, remember:

The Light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome it.

[Toz]

Hey
I'm really sorry. I truly, really am. That's hard to hear. There's nothing I or anyone else can say that will make your friend's death seem like an easier thing to get through. In time, you will reconcile, and she will always be a part of you.
"Death is nothing at all.
It does not count.
I have only slipped away into the next room.
Everything remains as it was.
The old life that we lived so fondly together is untouched, unchanged.
Whatever we were to each other, that we are still.
Call me by the old familiar name.
Speak of me in the easy way which you always used.
Put no sorrow in your tone.
Laugh as we always laughed at the little jokes that we enjoyed together.
Play, smile, think of me, pray for me.
Let my name be ever the household word that it always was.
Let it be spoken without effort
Life means all that it ever meant. It is the same as it ever was.
There is unbroken continuity.
Why should I be out of mind because I am out of sight?
I am but waiting for you, for an interval, somewhere very near, just around the corner.
All is well. Nothing is hurt; nothing is lost.
One brief moment and all will be as it was before.
How we shall laugh at the trouble of parting, when we meet again."
Canon of St. Paul's Cathedral

[luck fife1]

there is nothing to be said here... i'm sorry.

[Lars]

If you want to talk just pm me. Its an unimaginable feeling to loose a piece of you like that. I cant say much. But Im here to talk if you want to.

[TheCrowing]

I'm really sorry to hear about your friend.

Losing someone you're close to is difficult, and you may feel like this for a while. But stay strong and keep your head up. She'll always be with you, looking over you.