Humpty Dumpty sat on a wall.

[CitizenErased]

Aidan Dominy sat on a wall,
Aidan Dominy had a great fall,
All the psychiatrists and all the CPN's,
Couldn't put Aidan together again.

So it feels like my head pain isn't going away. This is not because I fell off a wall, but sometimes I wish it was, because then at least I'd know what caused it. My negative emotions and all the thoughts I had this time last year are back. Today has been a scary day. I don't want to go back to hospital, I just want to be better already! 3rd time lucky perhaps? Even though I'm usually a pessimist, I still have some hope that I can get better. I'm just useless at figuring out when and how. I'm terrified of my parents, and I'm terrified of myself. It's gonna be so hard talking to someone about this

Best wishes,
Humpty dumpty

[ALLorNOTHINGforCHRIST]

Why are you scared of your parents? Has anything happened that you think may have caused these thoughts like a death or something? I tell you you sound a LOT like me I go back and forth. You have a good idea about talking to someone about it.

[CitizenErased]

I'm scared of my parents because they see my problems very differently to the way I do. And they get angry and upset whenever I bring it up. Which is why I find it so hard to talk to them, because they always try and avoid the problems or by blaming it on something else. Nobody has died in my family, but there have been marriage break-ups with have hurt me. My parents are still together, but I got to some other people in my family and they split up. I have really strong recurring visions of me killing my parents. But that's something different. Thanks Emily, I'm trying to sort out seeing someone tomorrow

[blumemusik♫]

I know you're finding things really hard right now, and it would be really great if you could see someone and speak to them tomorrow it is a tricky thing for you, but you know that it will get better. I promise! And I'm here for you if you need me I hope you'll be okay <3

[CitizenErased]

Thanks Kate :') <3

[Palmolive]

Hi my lovely.

I wish I had the words to make it all better. Recovery is hard and there's going to be relapses and times where you want to give up, but it's just important that you keep on going and keep fighting. I know it's hard, I really do but I believe in you. You have honestly come such a long way and I am really proud of you. I know it's hard but you can beat this. And I know it's hard to talk to people but I'm here for you anytime. If there is anything I can do to help you at all, please let me know. Even if you just want to rant to me and let off some steam or ever just talk about stupid things (which I always do) to help distract yourself. Just don't be alone. Keep fighting it because you're stronger than this and you're going to get through it, okay?

Look after youself. I'm here anytime you need me.

Jessie xx