Triggering (SH): SH and me

abuddingflower · **SH and me -** April 27th 2012, 07:04 PM

I've been self harming since the age of eight or nine - I'm fourteen now. When I first started I didn't really think of it as hurting myself ( that sounds a bit silly but yeah) and it was just scratches, pinching and punching myself. But as I got older it became worse and now I'm burning and cutting.

I see CAMHS ( child and adolecent mental health services) and have been since the age of eleven. I am on meds and have therapy once every two weeks. I see CAMHS for my self harm, depression, anxiety and sort of an eating disorder ( they say I'm at the verge of developing anorexia). I have a lot of trust issues and sturggle opening up to people about my problems, especially SH and this has been really hard for me to write this message - so i must admit, i'm quite proud of myself.

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I bottle up all my feelings and then to let it out I hurt myself. The emotions built up and the cutting is an instant release..

Even though i know theres loads of other young people who self harm - i still feel so alone and isolated. I don't feel like anyone understands me and my family don't actually understand how serious my SH is ..

I'd like to speak to other young people in the same situation as me..so please reply if you can..

thanks,

,xox

PurpleMoon · **Re: SH and me -** April 27th 2012, 10:16 PM

Hey!

I just want to let you know you are not alone, i myself am struggling with self harm, Unlike you i dont see someone about it but im going to. You should be very proud of yourself for doing that.

I starteded self harming when i was 13 or 14 and i know how difficult it can be!!

Stay Strong!
You can always talk to me if toy need too

himynameisnikkiiii · **Re: SH and me -** April 28th 2012, 05:27 AM

I wanted to say good job! I'm proud of you, it might sound silly to some people but it can really take a lot of courage just making a forum post. C: It can always feel like family doesn't get it, it's kinda like they care too much and it's hard to talk about it with them sometimes. I know how you feel, just remember that even if you feel it, you aren't alone and you are loved! :3

abuddingflower · **Re: SH and me -** April 28th 2012, 12:30 PM

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Originally Posted by BillieGirl

Hey!

I just want to let you know you are not alone, i myself am struggling with self harm, Unlike you i dont see someone about it but im going to. You should be very proud of yourself for doing that.

I starteded self harming when i was 13 or 14 and i know how difficult it can be!!

Stay Strong!
You can always talk to me if toy need too

I'm sorry to hear that you self harm to and without any to talk to, that must be hard. I'm glad that your going to get someone to talk to about it though soon because it must be horrible for you to keep it all to yourself.

abuddingflower ,x

abuddingflower · **Re: SH and me -** April 28th 2012, 12:35 PM

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Originally Posted by NikkiRAWR

I wanted to say good job! I'm proud of you, it might sound silly to some people but it can really take a lot of courage just making a forum post. C: It can always feel like family doesn't get it, it's kinda like they care too much and it's hard to talk about it with them sometimes. I know how you feel, just remember that even if you feel it, you aren't alone and you are loved! :3

Thanks for this message. The family atmosphere at home is horrible and I just feel like I'm lying to everyone because they'll ask me whether I'm alright and I'll just say yes I'm fine, but I'm really not. I guess I don't want to worry them because they've got so much going on.

Hope your okay?

abuddingflower, xo.

Katherine96 · **Re: SH and me -** April 28th 2012, 11:11 PM

Hey, you aren't alone. There are many people on this site that can relate to you and will be happy to talk to you and listen when you need it, including myself. You can PM me any time if you want to talk or vent, I'm always here for you <3 I know how much of a horrible place self harm can put you in, especially when you feel no one understands you. Remember, you are not alone beautiful <3 stay strong <3

abuddingflower · **Re: SH and me -** April 29th 2012, 10:29 AM

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Originally Posted by Katherine96

Hey, you aren't alone. There are many people on this site that can relate to you and will be happy to talk to you and listen when you need it, including myself. You can PM me any time if you want to talk or vent, I'm always here for you <3 I know how much of a horrible place self harm can put you in, especially when you feel no one understands you. Remember, you are not alone beautiful <3 stay strong <3

Thanks for this lovely message sweet. I don't feel as alone now.

abuddingflower, xo.