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A high without the drugs& I need to be punished - October 15th 2013, 05:27 AM

So there is two reasons behind this post. One is because I want to cut and the other one is because I miss it.

Anyways the first reason I really want to cut and the reason for wanting to cut this time is different from most of the other times. I need to cut because I need to be punished for my sucky attitude. Today my attitude and personality has been sucky basically I've been a sucky person today so I need to be punished for that.

The second reason is I have been cut free for 7 months and I fucking miss it terribly. It is basically a high for me with out the drugs. Somedays I just want to cut for the hell of it and to see if it still gives me the same effects. I have gone 4 years without cutting before then relapse and then gone a year or two so I know I can do it. I just really miss it and want to cut for the high and to be punished


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Re: A high without the drugs& I need to be punished - October 15th 2013, 02:40 PM

All of those times you went SH free are amazing Have you thought about rewarding yourself? Congrats, really, because that's a huge accomplishment.

I'm sorry to hear that you miss it though; but I know the feeling. There is no need to punish yourself for having a bad attitude. You acknowledging it is good enough. You know you maybe didn't do so well and you can definitely improve it. Here's the link for SH Alternatives.There's a lot of different things and hopefully a few of them can be beneficial to you. Like you said, you can definitely go SH free for that long again. I believe in you


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Re: A high without the drugs& I need to be punished - October 17th 2013, 05:11 AM

Hey there,

You don't need to punish yourself. We all have bad attitudes sometimes but that doesn't mean that we deserve to be punished all it means is that we are having a bad day. Do you know what has caused your bad attitude? I know that when I am in a bad mood a lot of the time it is because I am stressed or something like that. If you can try and figure out what has caused your bad mood you can work on trying to resolve that issue so, hopefully, it doesn't happen again for some time.

I think it is great that you have gone 7 months without self harm and you should be proud of yourself. I know it must not have been easy. Remember that the urges you get will pass. I think that those urges will always come and go but with time we will learn to fight them more and more. You can fight them.

I am going to link you to the Alternatives to Self Harm I suggest you look over that whenever you are feeling the urge to harm yourself.

I really hope that this helped and if you need anything please feel free to message me.


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Re: A high without the drugs& I need to be punished - October 17th 2013, 04:00 PM

Stop giving me the alternative threAd it doesn't work there for it just pisses me off


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Re: A high without the drugs& I need to be punished - October 19th 2013, 03:39 AM

Hey there,

Jenna is right that just because you didn't have the best attitude, you don't have to punish yourself for it. Everyone has their off days sometimes, but that doesn't mean you're a bad person. You do have to move past it. Maybe what you can do is apologize to anyone you may have given an attitude to. Everyone makes mistakes, after all, but it's good to own up to them and say you're sorry and move on. At least then you'd be clearing your conscience.

Maybe when you're in a bad mood and start to see yourself get irritable, you can take a walk or try and do things to clear your mind a little bit so you don't give someone the attitude that you feel guilty about.

The 7 months is really awesome, though! Remind yourself that even though you want to see if it gives you the same effects, it's really not worth it in the end because you have to worry about breaking the cycle, and any guilt you may have after. Maybe you can write down reasons why you shouldn't self harm, even small things, so you can look at them and say "maybe I shouldn't." You are worth so much more than just getting the high off of it.

But you really are stronger than you think, you can do this!

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