Triggering (SH): Whats wrong with me...?

catastrophic_mind · **Whats wrong with me...? -** February 27th 2010, 08:09 PM

Well right Sometimes i get randomly really down like really really down...at anything, nothing in perticular i mean the other day my bf told me he loved me and i burst into tears...and this keeps happening at random things and i dont know why? when this happens i really want to cut agen....but i hold myself back...but its getting to the point where i cant anymore and i dont know whats wrong with me ? why do i get like this all the time?

Thirteen · **Re: Whats wrong with me...? -** February 27th 2010, 08:22 PM

Well perhaps you've had some bad experiences with love in the past? I don't know, and it's not my business. But you might want to consider seeing a councellor/therapist about this.

Your emotions could be out-of-whack because of something as simple as hormones, since you are growing up. On the other hand, it could be something more. Either way, it would probably help to look further into it, even if its just for someone to talk you through it in the end.

catastrophic_mind · **Re: Whats wrong with me...? -** February 27th 2010, 08:27 PM

him saying i love you was an example i mean before i wrote this i burst into tears for no reason... so hm yeah...bully at school wont help i tried counciling and they forgot about me...

Beautiful Disaster · **Re: Whats wrong with me...? -** February 28th 2010, 02:59 PM

Hey there,

It could have been your boyfriends show of affection that got to you when he said he loved you, maybe someone has never said that to you before and it just caught you off guard? In that instant anyway. Alternatively, it could be something to do with hormones as Julz said. If it gets much worse or carries on, could you see a doctor/GP about it? There might be something they can do.

Also, I'm sure the counsellor didn't forget about you, not at all. Did you get on with your counsellor? It could be that you weren't comfortable with whoever it was. For counselling to work you need to be able to have a good relationship with the counsellor, be comfortable with them and find it easy to be honest. Is there any chance you could try another counsellor?

When you say cut again, what exactly do you mean? Are you an ex-self harmer? If so, what way did you use to "stop" the first time? Could you use it again?

PM me if you need a chat,
Take care.

Anna

Prozac · **Re: Whats wrong with me...? -** February 28th 2010, 03:22 PM

Hey there Paige,

It sounds that you're struggling right now and I'm sorry to hear that. It's wonderful that you're reaching out, though.

It must be difficult, feeling so upset all of the time, especially if you're unsure why you're feeling this way. Unfortunately, there isn't an easy answer to 'Why do I get like this all the time?' because you may be feeling and acting this way for numerous reasons. When you're unsure what is wrong and it's really affecting you then it's usually best to talk to someone who can help you sort through your thoughts and feelings. It's clear you have people who love you around you, which is wonderful. Do you think you could reach out to them? I'm sure that they'd support you. You could talk to a friend, family member, counsellor or doctor, for example - anyone you can trust.

Harming yourself is not going to help you sort out your feelings or give you an answer Paige, but it may add more to your problems and even make you feel somewhat worse. Talking about how you feel or writing it down would be a much better and more helpful idea. You do not deserve to hurt any more, Paige.

Take care.

lauren_160 · **Re: Whats wrong with me...? -** February 28th 2010, 09:55 PM

As the previous posters have said, it could be something simple like high hormone levels, or PMS or something?
If the school counselor isn't being helpful, why don't you try talking to your parents, or going to the doctors who could refer you to someone appropriate to talk to.
Hurting yourself isn't going to help, if you're feeling triggered why not have a look at the alternatives page, and try a few out

or even post on here again, we're always willing to help xx

http://www.teenhelp.org/forums/f12-s...ves-self-harm/

WillO'Wisp · **Re: Whats wrong with me...? -** February 28th 2010, 10:52 PM

I think you are just emotional, and that's not a bad thing. It's good to have emotions. Perhaps if you are feeling down or upset, you should try and talk to someone who you love and trust, someone older and wiser, someone who can help you with the depression you are feeling, because it seems you're depressed.
There's nothing wrong with you, alot of people go through these things. I've gone through it and I thought I was a complete wreck, but I realized it was just the depression eating me up and I was letting it and had to put a stop to it. Been cut-free for 3 years now.