Please Help Me Stop

[Daft Life]

Over the course of the past 3 months, I have began self mutilation. I have really bad acne, and have tried many creams, but the zits will not go away. About a month and a half ago I stole various chemicals from the science lab, that are low in acidic levels. I poured them on my face, the acne went away but i got many blisters and soars. I spent 2 days in the hospital, but I was happy there, because people seemed to care about me, and the pain I hard experienced was such a great release. I have worsened and started cutting my thighs, wrists, and ears with razors, hoping my parents would give me that sort of feeling of care again, but they haven't. I am on the verge of cutting me Achilles tendon so I can go back to the hospital, but I know this is wrong, I just can't stand being neglected any more.

[actingpassion123]

please don't do it. i know how hard it can be to resist doing things like that. it seems like a win/win, but it's really not. hurting yourself enough to get you hospitalized will just cause you more pain in the end, trust me. do you have anyone to talk to professionally? they can really help you and be there for you.

[Daft Life]

Well I've tried talking to the school resource officer, and school nurse, but they always seem uninterested and don't take me seriously. What am I supposed to do, go tell me Mom and Dad I like hurting myself, they won't get me a psychiatrist cause my Mom works from 4pm-2am at Waffle house and my dad drives semis 3 weeks out of the month. They can't afford it. Please, i really need another option.

[actingpassion123]

i think every school has a counselor. if not, talk to your resource officer again. sit them down and make sure to tell them that you seriously want help. also, i would check your insurance. if you have it, it can sometimes be really helpful with therapy bills.