I Cut Myself On My Finger

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Well, as the title says I cut my finger. My teacher died on Tuesday and we had a memorial on Wednesday. After the memorial and I had to go home, I got really angry so I started burning paper that I could find on the way home and I needed to do something to release my intense emotions so I took a pair of scissors and slid it across my finger 3 times until it started to bleed. The reason why I did it on my finger was because I know that most people look at someone's wrist for cuts but no one looks at someone's finger right?

[Em...]

Hey Alisha,

I'm so sorry to hear that your teacher died. I know it's hard to cope with death and grieving. It's hard for anyone, you're only human. So my sympathy to your teacher.

I know it may seem like cutting was your only option to relieve the tension inside of you. But it's not. Self harm is a coping mechanism. I'm not sure if this is your first time cutting, but if it is, please do not continue doing it. Anyone here who SHs can tell you then it's not the path to go. You do it once and maybe forget about it for a bit, then a few months later you're feeling stressed again and you remember the knife so you do it again and then you find that you're self harming everytime you feel awful, and then the questions come. People ask how you got hurt, and then the lies. It's all a bunch of lies because you can't tell the people who care about you what you did to yourself. And it's just this downward sprial of so many things that's hard to get out of.

Self-harming is not the way to go. No matter where you hurt yourself, if people can see it, they'll ask what happened and then you'll have to lie about it, and that's not something you should do.

Because self-harm is a dangerous coping method, the next best thing to do is to find another coping method. In this forum there is a sticky filled with self-harm alternatives that are catagorised by the feeling you may be experiencing and if you can find a few that you like, do those instead of self-harming when you feel stressed or filled with so much emotion that you can't handle it.

Alisha, there will be many more hard times ahead of you, there is no doubt about that. How you handle yourself in these hard times is up to you, only you can choose whether or not to hurt yourself or do something else like writing it out or going for a walk. You have to have the will power to not do this and remind yourself that it's bad.

I know it's hard to deal with a loss, but remember you're not the only one grieving for your teacher. Perhaps talk to someone you can trust about how you're feeling and be comforted in the fact that they may feel the same way too.

There are people out there willing to talk and Alisha, they won't know something is wrong unless you tell them. I urge you to talk to someone you trust and get the self-harm out of your life before it begins to control your life.

Please PM me anytime if you want to talk. I hope you're doing okay love. My regards to you and your teacher. Take care.