Relapsing badly

[Agoraphobia♥]

I know I've always told everyone that September I stopped last year and I did but this year since around April I just, I've been having these slip-ups, and they just got more and more frequent but I still just called them slip ups and well I can't really call them slip-ups anymore, it really is a relapse... I've been through all of the alternatives and none feel as good as pain. It's getting back to the point I was at last year where I needed to be put in a facility (never was though) during that time my "slip-ups" were using my teeth and nails even. Well now it's getting bad again, really bad, you know like combs with metal tines for teasing and getting rid of hair rats, well yeah, I used that for SH instead, and I'm not kidding when I say I am finding ways with anything and everything, anything around me is something I can use to hurt myself. I have no clue what to do...

[Nomatophobia]

You need to find safer outlet for your SH, try drawing on yourself or wear a rubber band whenever you feel like cutting and snap it. Also, you should talk to someone about this, maybe a family member, a friend or the school guidance counselor?

[TheCrowing]

You're right. There is a certain point where having so many slip ups makes the term slip up null and void.
Sometimes the physical alternatives have no effect after a while. What made you stop last time? Physical alternatives never worked for me much. What worked was feeling motivated. Honestly, the only way you'll get over it is if you believe in yourself. If you don't want it, it's going to be pretty damn hard to do it. Set a goal. Like.. two weeks. Try your hardest to reach it before slipping up. Reward yourself with something nonharmful, something you like but would not normally get/do. Then set your goal for a longer period of time. Even if you slip up at the end of the two weeks, set your goal higher. Go for 3 extra weeks. Then 4. Then 5. If you want it bad enough, you can do it. Sure, it might take a while longer than you want it do. And sure, you may still do it from time to time.. but until you trust yourself and allow yourself to get better, you won't.