Triggering (Suicide): I Want To Die.

vagab0nd · **I Want To Die. -** November 25th 2011, 03:18 AM

I am truly better off dead.
I haven't cut in almost two months.
I feel the need to do it again.
I feel like I am better off dead.
This world is better off without a screw up like me.
A fuck up like me.
Every single day I think about hanging myself, O.D'ing or shooting myself.
I deserve to die.

Disappearing · **Re: I Want To Die. -** November 26th 2011, 06:04 AM

You do not deserve to die. I don't know your story, but I know that you deserve much more out of your life than that. You deserve life, and a chance to be free from your problems. The fact that you have kept yourself from cutting for two months, regardless of how much you wanted to, shows me that you are a very strong girl. I know you can make it through this time in your life, no matter how difficult. If you need to talk, you can PM me.

vagab0nd · **Re: I Want To Die. -** November 27th 2011, 01:08 AM

Well I cut today. So I'm not strong.
And I do deserve to die.

Disappearing · **Re: I Want To Die. -** November 27th 2011, 02:06 AM

I cut myself today too. You just made a mistake. It's okay. Everyone on here has probably done the same thing. And I don't think you deserve to die. I care about you, and I'm sure there are other people on here that do too.

vagab0nd · **Re: I Want To Die. -** November 27th 2011, 04:12 AM

I attempted suicide yesterday. If it really qualifies as an attempt. I think it did.
I tied a USB cord around my neck, and while still standing, tied it to the hanger thing in my closet. I didn't know where to go from there so I untied it. But I know I came really close to hanging myself.
It may not really qualify as an attempt, but I think it did. So.
I just. want. to die.
What part of that is so difficult to understand?
For everyone in my life?

Disappearing · **Re: I Want To Die. -** November 27th 2011, 04:16 AM

People in your life care about you. You may want to die. You may see no other solution to all the pain you are in than to attempt suicide, but there are other solutions. The people in your life know you want to, but they all see so much more that you could do. You have potential to do great things. You don't need to sell yourself short of all of that by ending it all. Suicide is a permanent solution to a problem that even though it may seem overwhelming, is temporary.

vagab0nd · **Re: I Want To Die. -** November 29th 2011, 11:52 PM

So things are a little better.
Doesn't mean I'm over it.
I know where the scissors are and if I have to I know how to take the blades out of the razor.

_sunsets64. · **Re: I Want To Die. -** November 30th 2011, 12:10 AM

But don't you see? You're still here, you're still writing in this group, you're still alive--you untied that cord and walked away instead of going to a new approach with the scissors or another plan like you've mentioned. Somewhere deep down, you still want to live. you haven't completely given up and that is why you can't do it--please don't do it--for yourself and for everyone who cares about you. Something in you is keeping you here, on this earth, for another day. "They can take away everything, but no one can take away your dreams" -- so hold on to that please.
What's your dream and what do you want to do? figure it out and try. please

if you ever need to talk, you can always pm me... my cousin's been going through this too recently

Disappearing · **Re: I Want To Die. -** November 30th 2011, 12:36 AM

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Originally Posted by _sunsets64.

But don't you see? You're still here, you're still writing in this group, you're still alive--you untied that cord and walked away instead of going to a new approach with the scissors or another plan like you've mentioned. Somewhere deep down, you still want to live. you haven't completely given up and that is why you can't do it--please don't do it--for yourself and for everyone who cares about you. Something in you is keeping you here, on this earth, for another day. "They can take away everything, but no one can take away your dreams" -- so hold on to that please.
What's your dream and what do you want to do? figure it out and try. please

if you ever need to talk, you can always pm me... my cousin's been going through this too recently

I completely agree with the above post. If you need to talk, you can PM me.