Does anyone else feel like this?

[Nutty Nat]

Since it happened these are most of feelings i have had:
no trust in guys
feel it was my fault because i let it happen 3 times on different days.
still got anger built inside me and can't get it out.
sometimes self harm since.
hate it when people talk or discuss sexual assualt,rape,gropping,
can't get close in relationships due to lack of trust,and can't have people coming from behind me.
can't have people stood behind me,
pretend it never happened.
feel different from others,
feel betrayed by the people that was meant to sort it out,
feel stupid for not going to police.
Even counselling isn't working for me as i try opening up but i just freeze,feel sick.I have tried writing a letter but then i chicken out of giving it her.

[Ms. Music]

Originally Posted by nutty

Since it happened these are most of feelings i have had:
no trust in guys
feel it was my fault because i let it happen 3 times on different days.
still got anger built inside me and can't get it out.
sometimes self harm since.
hate it when people talk or discuss sexual assualt,rape,gropping,
can't get close in relationships due to lack of trust,and can't have people coming from behind me.
can't have people stood behind me,
pretend it never happened.
feel different from others,
feel betrayed by the people that was meant to sort it out,
feel stupid for not going to police.
Even counselling isn't working for me as i try opening up but i just freeze,feel sick.I have tried writing a letter but then i chicken out of giving it her.

Hey there,
I'm so sorry you were abused, but I wanted to let you know that the feelings your are having are temporary. I think a lot of us here have felt the way you are feeling. You will recover, and you will get better. Have hope. PM me if you need to talk. Its a really tough time but I promise you will get through it.

[falling_x]

Yes I feel precisely the same way as you do ... and I still haven't managed to get over it. But (as people on TH keep telling me) It's not your fault and you really didn't let anything happen to you.

Sorry you feel like this - its horrible isn't it? Sorry I couldn't be of any more help. PM me if you ever need to talk.

[appleberry]

Hey there. Well, as time goes on and with support from your family, these feelings will get better. You'll trust others (to an acceptable extent), your PTSD will fade. As a victim of rape continuously for 4 years, I can say that I experienced all of it.
However, even when they get better, you'll never forget what happened. You'll still have random moments of distress.

Just have strength in yourself, and know that none of this was your fault. No matter how many times it happened, none if it was on you.
It WILL be okay, someday.
And we're all here for you when you need it.

[lostandalone]

I have felt the same as you. Like what the others said, those feellings will fade in time and you will be able to open up and the counseling will work. But it does take time. Please don't give up.

Just remember its not your fault.

[JuneBug]

hun ur feelings r totaly normal after somethin like this
and i know its hard to open up to a counsellor so try writing the letter and sending it like just write the address and ask some1 else u trust to post it so u cant chicken out

hun u know u can talk to me any time
take care
june
x

[Nutty Nat]

Thanks all of u for your replies,glad to know these feelings are normal cause most people think i am (excuse this phrase) "over it" ,i know you can never get over it but you can learn to live with it and find coping stageries(excuse my bad spellin also).But i have tried writing letter before and i just can't give it her,i've wrote things i want to discuss down so hopefully tommorrow in my session i can give it her.

[Lexy9e]

You are an extremely Brave person and you will get through this. It takes a lot of strength in a situation like this and a lot of hope. I know exactly how you feel. Sexual assault destroyed my life for a long time, but then I realized that others have experienced something like this and that I was not alone. You have to remember that you are not alone and that you have others who understand the pain you feel and the fear of men. I had this fear for a long time and it ruined a lot of relationships, but as I began to let it out and finally get it off my chest I became more comfortable. It is about accepting that this horrible thing has happened in your life and attempting to make the best of your situation. It's not going to be easy and forgetting is really difficult, but you can't let that person destroy your life because then he will have won. That is what he wants in the end. Not all boys are like this and it takes time to realize that and build up trust but take it slowly. Remember we are here for you feel free to message me any time.

Best,
Lexy