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Bipolar: Thinking 'bout Peter - March 10th 2014, 08:22 AM

Hey,

I have up and downs with my life. As for the day to day experiences, I am still bipolar (lol) but on more long-term, I am… I don't know.

I am diagnosed as Bipolar (Mostly due to anti-depressants causing mania). And I have various occurrences that when I look on, is clearly that - my Bipolar tendencies. I am on Lamictal which helps the depression which is my main difficulty.

But, I can' get over things, and I still go in to intense depression - but I can usually still focus. Yes, I should be regularly seeing a therapist, the therapists covered under my insurance suck. But I still want to self-harm all the time (I've been self-harm free for 2+ years, but mostly because my boyfriend would have a heart attack if I did still). And my biggest trigger is that I think of Peter all the time (One of two of my best friend's, he was from TH). I miss him so much. [Edited] He chose a the only time in my life that I was happy more than not to do it.
[Edited] On the anniversary of his 2-year… not being here anymore, my father nearly died.

But what do I do in the meantime? I should see a therapist, and I'm still trying. But besides for that, what do I do? Besides for the stereotypical 'find something to distract you' or 'find a new fun hobby', what the fuck do I do to not be so sad sometimes? For the time being, I need to feel like I'm not being told about Peter every time I think about him. I need to have some coping mechanism that I don't think about Peter or self-harming or suicide through.

Any ideas are greatly appreciated.
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Re: Bipolar: Thinking 'bout Peter - March 10th 2014, 04:01 PM

Hey

I wish I could helped you.All I can say is that you shouldn't harm yourself.Dont overthink about your problems much.Indulge yourself in new hobbies,hang around in parks or make new friends.If you ever need someone to talk,feel free to message me me.
And about your friend,I feel sorry that he is not with you currently.But remember that life is too big.You may find a better one in your future.
I wish your future will be bright and your problems will be solved soon.
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Re: Bipolar: Thinking 'bout Peter - March 10th 2014, 08:27 PM

What are your goals in life (aside from the content I edited due to its triggering nature)? Maybe that's part of the problem... if you don't feel like you have anything to live for in the long-term, then you're not going to feel very good about yourself or your life as a whole. Coping mechanisms can help when you have the immediate urge to self-harm, but when you use those, it's similar to taking pain medication when you have a broken arm. The problem is still there, and you need to find a way to fix the problem so you're no longer resorting to temporary solutions for the problem. Therapy can definitely take you in the right direction, and medication can help as well (but again, that only treats one aspect of the problem). In the meantime, it may help to talk to your loved ones and explore all that life has to offer. Bad things will happen throughout your lifetime, but wonderful things can happen, too. Sometimes, it's the little things in life that bring us joy and give us a sense of purpose (like a beloved pet greeting us after the end of a long school/work day). Other times, it's something bigger, like a relationship or belief in a Higher Being.





   
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Re: Bipolar: Thinking 'bout Peter - March 10th 2014, 09:03 PM

Hey Maria,

I'm diagnosed with bipolar as well, so I can definitely relate to the ups and downs and to the depression. I don't know if this happens to you, but a symptom of my bipolar disorder is often that I can't get my mind off of things. My thoughts race and I'll continuously think about things that trigger or upset me. I can imagine that this symptom would make dealing with the loss of a loved one even more difficult to deal with than it already is. I can see why finding a coping mechanism that works for you would be helpful.

I like Robin's idea of having goals. Whether it's a short term goal or a long term one, maybe having something to work towards could give your life a little bit more meaning. It could also serve as a coping mechanism. When you're feeling depressed or feeling the urge to harm yourself you could concentrate on doing the work that needs to be done in order to meet your goal. This could give you hope for the future and a way to distract yourself from thoughts that are contributing to your depression.

The difficult thing about coping mechanisms is finding one that really works for you. It took me awhile to find one myself. Maybe you should check out the self harm alternatives thread and pick some that you think could be helpful to you. Next time you're feeling depressed try some of them out and determine which ones are really beneficial to you. There's a lot to choose from so obviously not every one is going to work. But I'm sure that if you keep on trying you'll eventually find one that helps.

It also might be a good idea to talk to a doctor about the way you've been feeling. You said that you're already taking medication, so I'm assuming that you have a psychiatrist. You could talk to them about trying a new medication or increasing the dosage of the one that you already take. In my case I've always needed both an antidepressant and a mood stabilizer. If you feel that your medication isn't working as well as it should be then that's definitely something you should bring up with your doctor.

I hope that things improve for you soon. Feel free to message me if you ever need to talk. Take care


   
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