Triggering (Suicide): My psych confuses me.

[*~Circus Clown~*]

So, I went to see my psychiatrist today, after schedualing an emergency session because I was suicidal for 3 days straight and I was scared. And he was like, Lacey, that comes with your disorder. Now, ???? Is he saying I should just get used to feeling suicidal? And then he said, 1 out of 9 people with borderline personality disorders end up comitting suicide. Again, ?? Why are you telling me this? And like, he didn't say it cold and with no feeling, he was nice about it but still. And then he said I'm probably going to have to make changes to my personality, because personality disorders are automatic. Ugh, why does this seem so hard? I was fine when I just had depression. I didn't need to figure things out. Now people want me to track my emotions and make sense of things I don't get!
Does anyone else have Borderline Personality Disorder? If so, how are you dealing with it? Like, the constant mood swings and intense anger towards the world when someone does the smallest thing? I realize I do it but I can't stop and be like, oh haha jk I'm not really mad, its just my disorder. I don't know how to handle this.