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PTSD?? - June 17th 2010, 05:03 AM

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I thought that some of this could possibly be triggering so I would rather have some people not read it than to trigger them.

My therapist and doctor think that I might be suffering from PTSD. In one case I can believe it: when I was in middle school (so 9-11 years ago) my sister used to be drunk when I came home from school and she would threaten me with a knife and tell me that if I told anyone she was drinking that she would slit my throat in the middle of the night. She would yell and scream all the time. My sister and my dad always fought when I was younger. My sister finally went to therapy and my dad made some changes too. But now anytime Im around people fighting or yelling I get really freaked out. Like I basically curl up in a ball and want to die or disappear. So in that case I could understand the PTSD because for me what I went through with my sister was traumatic.

But my therapist and doctor also think that I am going on webcam for guys and meeting up with guys because of PTSD. They think that because I experience dissociation and things like that. But I dont figure out the major "trauma." Yeah my friend was murdered when she met up with someone, but its not like every time I think about it that I feel like going on webcam and its not like every time I go on cam that its because I had the same thoughts. I know that my low self esteem is a HUGE factor for why I go on webcam. But can your self esteem be something that causes stuff like PTSD? Like can my self esteem be that bad where I literally lose control of my behaviors? Im just confused.


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Re: PTSD?? - June 17th 2010, 05:42 AM

PTSD makes alot of sense. Though honestly, I don't think the cam thing is "dissociation". I think its more of a self-esteem thing than dissociation, since I thought that dissociation implied some lack of awareness (though I could be wrong). And well, most PTSD sufferers have self-esteem issues.

PTSD sufferers can dissociate from situations when things get stressful, and they have different abnormal behaviours. PTSD even explains things like Depression.

So, I'd suggest letting them investigate this further, since it seems to make loads of sense, and they probably know what they're talking about.


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Re: PTSD?? - June 17th 2010, 06:23 AM

I get this way too although i never thaught that maybe i have ptsd... I get really detached and whenever i hear yelling my i fist instinct is to run away or lay down on the floor and plug my ears or disappear... my mom used to yell at me a lot and say mean things and scare me... so i kinda get where you are comming from... I almost cant stand yelling... you could have ptsd... I think maybe the webcam could be another issue though...


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Re: PTSD?? - June 17th 2010, 03:09 PM

ArcAngel-- When i go on webcam I do disassociate because its like I am watching myself- like its like a movie and I am floating above my body looking down on myself. Thank you though for explaining a little about PTSD and things that can be caused by it. To be honest I dont know too much about PTSD and it just kinda scared me a little when my therapist mentioned it. I just want to be fixed.... But your right, I am going to let them investigate things. Maybe I am suffering from PTSD. Then again maybe Im not. But I will let my therapist and doctor help me through things- its hard but I know I have to do it and I want to do it because I want help. Thank you for your input.

Darkinnocenteyes: I dont mean this as Im glad that you deal with this too when it comes to fighting because I wouldnt wish the anxiety and everything it causes on anything, but I do feel comforted by the fact that I am not the only one who experience similar stuff. Thank you for sharing that with me. Do you see a therapist or anyone about how you feel when people yell and fight and about what you experienced with your mom? If not maybe you should look into it because if I am suffering from PTSD, maybe thats what you are suffering from too at least to some extent. If you ever want to talk about your experiences, or about what you go through when you are around yelling now, please feel free to PM me.


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Re: PTSD?? - June 21st 2010, 10:01 PM

aw thanks, yeah I don't usually actually run away anymore I just get scared and really uncomfortable that the yelling is at me even when it's not. I used to see a tharapist but I don't anymore.


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