Triggering: Psychiatric worker coming... :/

[Hallelujah]

My allocated worker from psych services is coming tomorrow. I've seen her briefly once, last week when I SH'd so bad, the hospital called her to come talk to me. I don't think I liked her. She told me to learn to distinguish between suicidal thoughts and wanting my depression to end. What if there's an overlap?
I don't think she took me seriously. I'd exhausted myself so much in the morning I was like a zombie when she got here and I think she was expecting the horrific mess that I usually am.

How do I tell her everything? How do you explain everything to someone without unleashing that tsunami of negativity? I'm suicidal. I self harm. I despise myself. I'm a failure. They hate me. Unwanted, unloved, ugly, fat, hideous, stupid, worthless.

Get my point?

Plus she'll ask all those stupid fucking questions and I'll have to tell her about today and the SH. Ugh. Why can't they just leave me alone?

[Gidig]

Hey-

I think the best advice I could give, is probably to be honest about it. Maybe she could actually help. Tell her you want help, you want to feel better, and sometimes wanted to feel better leads to suicidal thoughts.

If she's not helpful to you, be honest with her. Tell her you're having a hard time opening up to her for some reason, and if she's any kind of professional it should be within the limits to get someone else to see you I'd imagine.

Best of luck, sorry I wasn't of much help, but if you need to talk, I'm always here!
Maria.

[Euphoria]

I hope it goes alright. Best of luck. Just be honest and tell all you can bear to say. I'm really sorry you're being judged by someone who should understand the most. I love you dear and wish you all the luck<3

[x_sepi_x]

Hey sweetie. I know how you feel. I have to see my psych nurse and 'talk' to her but i know she doesn't understand. I feel like she thinks im a nuisance and that im lying but ive realised that you have to be honest and truthful to reach a better place. even if she doesn't like you or understand you've gotta push and make it work for your sake coz in the end this is for you and not her. Don't worry about it Joanna. Besides you've only seen her once and she may be something different to what you're expecting.
Best of luck sweet <3 x

[Illuminate]

Hi lovely..
I hope it went well! I'm sure it didn't turn out as bad as you though
If you just relax and tried to be truthful if something like this happens again, it might make it easier <3