simple questiong with weird long story

[Misslostintears]

I don't know where to start.
As a baby or young child, I kind of had a death wish. I just didn't want to live. I guess I tried everything (according to my mom) to kill myself. When I was first borned, my mother was in a stretcher with an other lady next to her. And the doctor was not there. So I was born on the egde of a stretcher. (My mom told me this next part) apparantly my mom tried to get me without me falling and I decide to just roll of the stretcher. I landed on my head. -_- then a couple of months later I was crawling and kind of watching how my mom did then things when I decide to roll down 3 flights of stairs. I was in the hospital for about 1 and 1/2 month. Then I threw myself ovee the edge of the 3 floor stairs this time only missing all the stairs and falling straight to the first floor. That had about 2 months in the houspital.then there was the street thing. The broken glass, the swimming pool, and a whole bunch of other things. But I guess the worse was the falling out of the 3rd floor window unto cement. Then again there was my pneumonia coma. I almost died from that too. All my life until now I been trying hard to die.
What I want to know is if its norma for me to have memory lost because of all these suicdal attempts I barely remember of?

[LeapOfFayth]

They don't sound like suicide attempts, they sound like an unlucky curious child.

And people don't usually remember what happens before the age of about 4. And people don't always remember traumatic events, I tried to kill myself when I was 18 and 19 and I don't remember much at all.

[Thirteen]

Rick is right, sounds like an unlucky, curious baby.

Think about it this way... Babies are, pretty much, born with a pure mind. They don't think about evils in the world, for example. Nor do they think about suicide, because of that.

Why would a baby want to subconsciously kill themselves, when they don't know any bad? Suicide attempts have an underlying reason, which would not be present in the mind of a baby.