Is this something to be worried about?

[Znelle]

First off, I was really sad and suicidal a year and a half ago for about 5 months (won't call it depression since I never went to a doctor), then it just kind of went away on its own and I also had anger management issues as a little kid (just a little background info, in case it turns out to be relevant).

Lately (2 weeks) I've been feeling kind of like I'm in a dream - everything's been so hazy and spinning so fast, my head is always full of thoughts, but they're not always pretty ones. It's just sort of like happiness mixed with regret and sadness that creates this really weird hollow feeling. Sometimes, I feel like I'm out of the dream, but then I slip back in there pretty soon.I've been having these "epiphanies" lately, like everything is falling into place and I finally get things, but they also cause even more thoughts the flood my head, which is not very pleasant.

For a while, I've been really paranoid. Whenever there's someone walking behind me, I think they're stalking me, potential murderers or rapists. I feel like there's always someone there, watching my every move, even though I can't see them. I believe that there's someone in my house and that they might be a supernatural being. I also sometimes believe people are trying to poison me - for example, I always drink tea in the mornings and I have this huge 500ml cup and sometimes I can't drink all of it at once, so I drink half of it, go upstairs, read/write/etc, then come down after a while and be too afraid to drink the rest of the tea because someone might've put something poisonous in there to kill me. Sometimes, I'm convinced that people can hear my thoughts. I'm also kind of afraid of mirrors, because sometimes I get this weird thought, that maybe the person in the mirror is actually me and I'm the reflection.

I'm really nervous about being around other people - I don't feel connected to the world, so why should I feel connected to them? I feel like I need them but I don't want to be around them.

My overall emotions are a weird mix of sadness and happiness, I have a strange sleeping pattern - I can not sleep for a week without being tired, but then I will crash and sleep for abour 15 hours straight, and this just goes on and on and on. I have been experiencing slurred speech, I can't pronounce words properly. I aslo talk really fast and about absolutely anything, no difference how irrelevant or random it seems. I can stare at the ceiling/wall/etc. for hours, just thinking and sometimes, when my brain is working overtime, I will just freeze into place in the middle of an action/sentence because a thought has taken over my entire brain and I literally can't think of anything else.

Is this normal? If not, what do you think it could be?

[PSY]

Welcome to TeenHelp! =)

No, this is not "normal". We can't offer a diagnosis, but in my opinion, I think your abnormal sleeping patterns could be affecting your thoughts/behavior. I'd start off with a regular doctor appointment. Rule out general medical conditions that could be affecting your thoughts/behavior. Develop a regular sleeping pattern (7-8 hours per day, falling asleep and waking up at roughly the same times), with assistance from your doctor/parents if need be. If you are still experiencing all these abnormal thoughts/behaviors after every general medical condition has been ruled out, then I'd get a referral to a psychological professional.

[Coal]

Are the paranoid thoughts and that "dreamlike" feeling you describe happening only when your sleeping pattern is screwed up or when you've been sleeping normally for a longer period of time as well? If they only happen when you're not sleeping enough, it may not be a mental issue.