I've lost myself..

[brokensmilexx]

The title pretty much explains it. I feel like I've totally lost myself, my personality, everything. I can't connect with anyone really anymore. I used to have lots of different groups of friends, and now I barely have anyone. I lost my best friend cause she hates me (its a long story, but I didn't do anything wrong) and after that now I just feel alone. I hang out with my other friends, but I've just lost something.. I'm always quiet, I used to be able to just have fun and laugh for no reason, now I can't.. Like I just felt kind of awkward hanging out with two of my old close girl friends. And they could feel it
I want to be my old self again ): I've been diagnosed with depression, so I'm on anti depressants and something for the acid in my stomach
The pills have been working, I know they have..but what the fuck is wrong with me ?
I've always been kind of reserved, but with friends I was just me you know? Now I barely talk to people, I don't have much to say so I say nothing, its feels like everyone is right in front of me, but at the same time I'm all by myself..like I'm in a state totally different then all of them
I don't know..its hard to explain.