Can't stop being reclusive..

[Warachia]

(Well this is a tad different, and probably not exactly worthy of being merged..)

I'm been acting reclusive at youth group for the past few weeks..

It all started on that Wednesday, when the girls unexpectably came into the room and I went batcrap insane, running around..

Well last night, I was calm and sitting at a table of a guy and a couple of girls, things were fine until the girl that remember waved at me at the bowling alley sat at that table and I got nervous..

I then took my finger and pointed at her(nervously) and asked her if she was the girl at the bowling alley that waved, after recieving confirmation.. just as one of the girls asked how the bowling alley party was, I ran to the empty table (that I usually pre-occupy) and hid.

Then I hid in the back and I only came out of there to ask the pastor a few questions("What are we supposed to bring to the Christmas Party?") and usually I resumed hiding in the back.

Later on, I went to the same girl from before and played her hair a bit to get her attention(Even though you did that gently, you're a weirdo) and I apologized for earlier and then said(and it was dry as British humor) that was just a "defense mechanism".

I also apologized to another girl that was at the same table.("It's just something I do. I prefer to only talk to girls one-on-one")

While I still have a green light for "Singing Sinatra" upon stage, I dunno.(and I really want to do that.)

I remember that one of the pastor's friends who usually goes there, said something along the lines of..

"If you participate in the group and people get to know you better, maybe one day a girl will say something like "Hey, I've got a friend who might be interested in you".."

But even though our youth group will be joining together with others, the chances of that are humorously slim.

Asked the pastor for advice on the topic and he said that I obtained a "type of fear" of girls, because I'm around them.

Before that I didn't even think about girls and I was a normal gamer/anime fan.

If I could have anime-type nosebleeds in real life, I would've already had 20...

[Sulvan1811]

I got this baddd :L i just get nervous and stuff around many people i dont trust like i dont like public stuff a lot and its annoying wen i got ta go places :/
i dont go out much like normal teens iblike being at home im comfortable and happy