need advice, socially troubled

[irandom]

please, please help.
ever since highschool started, ive relaized im always fucking always concentrating on the way im acting and talking, and im starting to hate myself. i dont know how to just be who i am, whoever that is.

im awkward and i hate hanging out with people cause im just so awkward and dont know what to say properly.

ive been thinking i have body dysmorphic disorder.. they say there always always looking in the mirror and making sure they look okay, any chance they get to look at themself they will take, and same with me.
i get nervous when people talk to me, about the way i look.

people say im cute, but i dont know what they see. i feel like im ruining my highschool with this, i havent been able to get good friends yet. hard to not feel alone now, and even harder to get those friends with the way ive been acting.

[Viky]

Originally Posted by irandom

please, please help.
ever since highschool started, ive relaized im always fucking always concentrating on the way im acting and talking, and im starting to hate myself. i dont know how to just be who i am, whoever that is.

im awkward and i hate hanging out with people cause im just so awkward and dont know what to say properly.

ive been thinking i have body dysmorphic disorder.. they say there always always looking in the mirror and making sure they look okay, any chance they get to look at themself they will take, and same with me.
i get nervous when people talk to me, about the way i look.

people say im cute, but i dont know what they see. i feel like im ruining my highschool with this, i havent been able to get good friends yet. hard to not feel alone now, and even harder to get those friends with the way ive been acting.

I know the feeling. I've felt like this for a very long time I hate the way i look but i look in the mirror all the time just to see... I talk fast and quiet because i don't think what i have to say is important. I wish i wasn't that way though. People say im really pretty and stuff... its nice to hear but i rarely believe it. Building confidence i would say might help you. This can be hard I know because I've struggled with it for a while.
Have you tried just going with the flow of things? Hanging out with people who you know wont judge you can help a lot As for the way you're talking that's not always a bad thing. Standing in front of a mirror and saying positive things can also help.
You might also look up on somewhere like google "tips to beat (insert the disorder you think you may have here)" or "ways to build self confidance." remember that no one is perfect and I'm sure you are a great person inside and out!