Don't know what to do anymore

[leavemealone]

I don't know what is wrong with me. I don't know what to do anymore about anything. I just turned down going out to eat one last time with my baby cousin, aunt, and uncle just because I couldn't bring myself to stop crying. I'm still crying, and I don't know how to stop! I'm being blamed for it too. I want to go, I really really really do, but how can I when my face is all red and my eyes are swollen? When I cant stop crying???!!! Sorry, but I really don't want to embarrass myself at a restaurant. Its bad enough at my own house. Now my mom is saying that shes not letting me go out to see them in California over the summer because I can't control my own emotions. And that I'm not allowed to see her anymore at all until I mature more. That I'm not even trying. I am trying my hardest, its just not good enough. Its never good enough, I'm never good enough for anything. I'm sorry that I'm such a mess when it comes to things like this, I just cant control myself when I get the urge to cry. If I wen't I would've been in the bathroom the whole time crying my eyes out, and then what? I would've embarrassed my whole family. I'm trying. I really am. I don't know whats wrong. I know that I'll see them again, but it doesn't matter if I remind myself that, I still cry. I still get so upset. And now everyone is upset with me. Stop blaming me!

[PSY]

Hey there! I'm sorry it's taken so long for you to receive a reply - I can imagine how upsetting this must be for you! If you don't mind my asking, have you been diagnosed with anything (ex. depression, anxiety), or can you think of anything else that causes the crying or triggers you to start crying?

[kbeamelia]

Don't worry at all. Listen, you may have a very minor problem and I don't think you need to worry. when about to cry, starting counting from 1 to ten and ask yourself what good it will come from crying. relax and calm down. remember, always keep yourself assured and be self confident, i am sure you are a wonderful person with amazing qualities.

[minniemouseprincess]

Im SO, SO sorry hun=( SO very sorry=( I understand completely. I am like that too. It can be VERY difficult sometimes because yes, many people don't understand. I have fought with friends before because they think I should be able to control my emotions, but I can't and it makes them feel fustrated and hopeless with helping me. It really sucks=( Im sorry you have had to go through similar things like that too. But you know what, there's nothing wrong with you okay? You are just an emotional person by nature. You feel more than the average person. That's not necessarily a bad thing. That can be a very wonderful thing. It also prob. means you care heavily for people in your life. I know sometimes it can be difficult and people don't understand sometimes. Im sorry your family is acting that way, they shouldn't. This is who you are and they need to accept you for who you are. I promise you dude, you are fine. To help with the getting upset, just try to calm yourself whenever you feel like you may reach that point. Stay away from any emotional triggers (for me its things that make me uncomfortable or scared). That way you can keep yourself from reaching that really high point where you can't control it. If you ever need someone to talk to about it, feel free to message me.

[leavemealone]

No I've never been diagnosed with anything before. And its just really upsetting things that cause me to cry, or just thinking about it for a second, I get that little feeling in the back of my throat and I have to stop thinking all together. Its really really annoying.

[minniemouseprincess]

Originally Posted by leavemealone

No I've never been diagnosed with anything before. And its just really upsetting things that cause me to cry, or just thinking about it for a second, I get that little feeling in the back of my throat and I have to stop thinking all together. Its really really annoying.

Yeah I think all you can really do is just try to stay as far away from things that are upsetting to you. I guess you could go to a therapist if you wanted to. Maybe they could help you figure out ways to stop yourself from getting that upset.

[minniemouseprincess]

This is random but I forgot to say in my last post, I LOVE the song that line is from above your siggie. Its one of my favorite songs ever=)