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Purging - December 29th 2015, 01:39 AM

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So I just got home today from the hospital for a week then a crisis residential for a week. While I was in the hospital I purged twice. While I was at the crisis center I didn't purge at all. I feel so guilty and like a failure. I want to purge and purge until I get so bad I get dehydrated and have to go to the hospital. I keep getting told my weight is unhealthy and I'm going to be in pain and that I need to loose weight. I get that but you don't keep saying that to some with an eating disorder. And then say but you can't keep trying to loose weight the way you do it's dangerous. NO FUCK. I know this but it's an addiction it's control. I just really want to purge everything I eat and starve too. I just need to get all this disgusting fat off of my body. I want to hit my target weight and once I do I will be happy. I just need to continue my Eating disorder habits.

I plan on contact the free Christian treatment center and continue with my application so hopefully I get in. But I just really need to be in control right now.


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Re: Purging - December 29th 2015, 08:44 PM

Hi there,

I'm so sorry you're going through such a tough time right now. I'm not sure whether you're actually looking for help; you seem strongly about continuing this way but I'm going to give you the best advice I can anyway, because you don't deserve to be putting you or your body through this and I hope I can help.

You're right, it is an addiction. I have EDNOS and Bulimia so I can relate to what you're going through but I will never completely understand. I was also told I had put weight on last week by my consultant psychiatrist and that made me want to go into a downwards spiral. It's hard to have someone say that to you once, I know, never mind someone repeatedly telling you and I'm sorry you're knowing throughthat. Could you talk to them and tell them how them constantly telling you need to lose weight isn't helping you but making you worse and explain you understand you need to lose weight? I know that might be hard and scary but it's something I think you can do.

I'm not saying don't lose weight. If you are over weight, then generally the healthy thing would be to lose some. Are you on any medications that cause weight gain out of interest? If so it might be worth looking into that and talking to the person who prescribes you them about it. You can however lose weight in a "healthy" way by eating healthily (that doesn't mean you can never eat foods like chocolate, just eat them in the right proportion) and by doing regular exercise. Is this something you could work on?

Maybe seeing a dietitian or an eating disorder specialist would help you too. Or even having counselling to talk through these issues. I don't know what support you have in place now but it's definitely something to think about.

When you feel the need to purge you need to do something healthy and good for you instead like distracting yourself or making yourself feel better in a different way like painting nails or having a bath and so on. Take time out for you and pamper yourself. I know this is hard but you can get through it and you are not alone in it neither. We're here for you any time okay? Don't suffer in silence and keep building on positive things in your life.

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Re: Purging - December 30th 2015, 01:17 AM

Jessie, you know I want to get this under control. I've talked to you a million times and told you I need help and hate that it controls my life. I just right now the thoughts are so fucking bad. I am going to get into a treatment center hopefully. I am going to start the process again.


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Re: Purging - December 30th 2015, 06:44 AM

Hey,

I'm glad you want this under control and I honestly believe in you. I know it's a hard fight but you can do this and we're all, I'm rooting for you. You're not alone okay? I know it's scary but recovery is going to show you so many things that you'll be amazed. Keep on fighting And don't suffer in silence.

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