I think im actually getting better!!!

[emma01]

I've been seeing soo many doctors, dieticians, pediatricians and counsellors lately its getting a bit overwhelming...BUT hopefully I won't quite have to see them so often soon enough!
Last thursday, I went to the pediatrician...and I nearly ended up in hospital. I am so close to ending up in hospital it's unreal, my whole social life is hanging by a thread, and I am going back to see her tomorrow...hopefully I havent lost any more weight. But anyway, when she said that, i thought to myself "I will beat this" and since then I have been doing so well!
I used to hate eating at school, I used to take maybe a small apple, or maybe eat half a banana and a cracker at the most. TODAY however, I had a banana and nuts at morning break. A sandwich (half had marmite and the other half had peanut butter and jam - dietician told me to have that) and the rest of the nuts that I didn't have for morning tea. I also had a little fruit bar thingy. I got home and had a wee snack, then had tea, then ICE CREAM! and i ENJOYED IT! I dont mind anymore! I am enjoying food. If I am hungry I will have a wee snack and just enjoy it!
It's actualy quite amazing the amount I do eat, and im not realy gaining weight which is a blow, but this week I stayed the same and that is good! I feel sooo much better and its amazing to be able to eat something and not care about the calories in it! Im still not into chips and chocolate and that, but I can still have higher calorie snacks and not worry!

[Voldemort]

This post made me smile.
I'm really glad things are looking up for you.
Congratulations on this, it must be difficult for you.
PM me if you want to talk.
Maria~

[Jen]

Emma, that's wonderful! Hold onto this feeling--keep writing about it and talking about it, so that when you have a hard moment or day, you can conjure it up and know it exists. You can do this--keep it up!

<3

[Casey.]

Emma! You don't know how happy I am to hear this. This is great, and I am so proud of you for trying. You can do this, just keep fighting.

[emma01]

Thanks guys!!!! Lol yea it's great, ice cream hasn't tasted this good for a long time!!! I went to see pediatrician today and i didnt have to go to hospital thank god! She said im still very very very close to, but i can stay out if I keep trying! Dietician given me what i need to eat and stuff, and hell its quite a lot and high ENERGY foods :P but still I have to have it and even though im very full im just going to follow plan and eat and enjoy!!!

[~CourageousSurvivor~]

This was awesome to read. I am glad you are on the road to recovery.

I know the meal plan the dietitians give out seem like a lot but remember that they know what you need. Trust them and not your ED voice. I know that it can be hard but in the end it is worth it.

If you ever need anything feel free to pm me.

Jenna

[emma01]

Lol thanks Jenna! Im hoping because i did not have this problem for years and years I can be fully back to normal!
Yea I am trusting the dietician, I mean I wouldnt really choose nutella (chocolate hazlenut spread) or anything, but it is nice and I am going to enjoy having it!!!
I just want to get back to my running again! I havent been out running with mum for so long, i havent had the energy! I aim to get better and be able to have a normal life, eat when I am hungry, ENJOY the food and just get rid of this! Enjoy chocolate again I hope, because I've been so scared of it!

[hopefaithlove]

That's amazing and inspiring!!! Keep up the awesome work.

[emma01]

Thanks Kac!

[Imagine]

Keep up the great work Emma.
We believe in you.

[an_revival]

Emmma, I'm so proud of you for accepting help and even more proud of you for actualy following through with it. If you need to talk, feel free to email me at admin@hopeforhealing.us

[emma01]

Thanks Angelina and hope for healing

[an_revival]

I'm proud of you. My email has changed, so email me at angela@hopeforhealing.us if you need anything.

[AmethystDrew]

This post made me smile, and gave me hope.

Thank you - and I'm proud of you! ^^

[emma01]

AmethystDrew thanks, i was hoping maybe I could give hope to people out there, which is part of the reason I made the post! So Im glad to hear that! I thought I'd never be able to eat normally again, but its so definately possible!!! And it really feels great! I hope you can get better soon too!