ready

[Justdance]

In the last year, I have been diagnosed with an eating disorder, I went to treatment and was kicked out of treatment for not abiding by the rules of the facility.
Im just not ready for recovery. Ive tried so hard to see the way others see, and to feel like others do, but I cant get myself to think I have a problem. I feel fine, I dont feel to skinny, and I dont want to get better. Ive gained weight now because of my parents being strict, but Im still purging almost everything they make me eat. And if they let up, I would start restriciting just as much.
Basicaly, how do you feel ready? When does that moment come where you know you actually need help? I just dont think its gotten bad enough for me yet. Im diagnosed, Ive passed out a few times, Ive lost my period, all this stuf, yet for some reason, I dont think this is a problem. How can I be normal and feel that it is?

[Liz94]

I think it is quite common for people struggling with an addiction to be in denail about how serious the problem is. It sounds to me that you are in denial as you don't want to face up to how bad things have gotten with your eating disorder.

No one can say when you will be ready to accept help as it is different for every person there is no set time.

I would suggest talking to your parents saying that them being really strict isn't helping you that much and is leading you down the route of purging. I would also explain to them that the truth is that you are not going to recover until you accept your eating disorder and want to recover for yourself and not for other people.

I would say though that if you carry on and don't start trying to beat your eating disorder you could end up hospliatized and being force fed, basically forced into recovery.

I have sounded a bit harsh in my reply I know, but sometimes that is exactly what is needed.

If you ever need someone to talk to I am here for you adn I know everyone says that, but I do truely mean it.

Stay strong.

[Heartlines.]

Hey there. You'll know you're ready when you start becoming more open minded to the idea of help. What's happening now is you lost your period, you pass out, etc. and you don't think it's a problem. You're a woman, so naturally, you should be having your period once a month. And passing out do to lack of nutrition is not something that happens to everyone. You passed out and lack a period because your body lacks in nutrients. Sometimes you have to put effort into recovery even if you don't want to. I would accept the help that you're given, as it might not always be there. You know? You have to trust the doctors who diagnosed you, as they know what they're doing. But one way or another, you're going to have to face recovery sometime. Like Liz said, if you get to a certain point, they could force you into recovery and force feed you. Which, I'm sure you don't want. I would choose recovery while you still have the choice.

[smiles07x]

Just the fact that you are on this is a step though. You might not think you are ready for recovery..but this is one step.