I need to get this out

[waiting.in.the.wings]

I went 2 days with eating nothing but a small amount of bread and water.

I've lost (edited) in 2 weeks.

I'm 5 feet tall and (edited).

I know there's something wrong with me. But if I eat, I hate myself.

I don't think I'm normally proportioned.

I hate my body.

I Need Help.

[Revolution]

Hey there,

I cannot diagnose you with an eating disorder, but it does sound like you are participating in some very dangerous behavior with food. The only person who can diagnose you is a doctor, or professional, who I would highly recommend you go see. Admitting you have a problem is the first step to recovery, now you just have to seek help.

If you are scared to go directly to a doctor, going to a parent or other adult you trust can be the next best thing. If you need ideas of who to go to for help, this page has always been very helpful. Once you decide who you trust with the information, there are many ways of going about it. I would as calmly as possible sit the person down and let them know what is going on, no hidden information, just complete honestly. If that's too scary, you can also always write them a letter or email. Written word can sometimes be a lot calmer than spoken word, and can help us express our feelings more precisely.

I hope you reach out for help! Living with an eating disorder is so glamorized by media, but really, it is something nobody wants to go through. To live a happy, healthy life, seek recovery, and live the life you have the opportunity to live. I hope this helps, message me or reply if you have any more questions!

[It's Killing Me]

I think you need to go see a doctor. A professional. If you don't feel comfortable with that, talk to an adult you trust.

[Heartlines.]

Hey there,

Like Traci said, we can't diagnose you with an eating disorder. But I do agree, you need help. You can't recover without realizing you have a problem. Which, I see you've done. I'm glad you realize that you need help. Knowing who to go to and what to say can be the hard part. Is there anyone that you trust? Like a school teacher, a school guidance counselor or a friend? If you're nervous to talk to someone, I would have a friend or a parent be there with you. That can often times make things easier, and can make for a comforting situation. Talking about what you're going through can be hard, but venting all your emotions can be a relieving, positive experience. And it won't be easy. For recovery, you have to be willing to make an effort. No matter how uncomfortable it gets, or how hard it gets. You deserve to make your feelings know. And you deserve to be happy. Keep fighting. <3