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Unhappy Slipping Back - May 2nd 2012, 07:35 PM

Hey guys, needing some support and advice right now.

I'm an ex-substance abuser and addict.


I ended up in a very bad state after 5 years of abusing my body and mind with various substances, primarily alcohol and cannabis.


I used them to deal with and suppress my BPD and Depression, as well as for recreational purposes and through boredom.


I've been in and out of AA for a few years, and was with a borough service for Alcohol and Drug abuse 2010/2011, for quite a while, which culminated in me almost entering rehab, but i decided to be a 'recreational' user, so I forewent on the programme. I ended up very, very ill, physically anorexic, mentally in shreds and presented at almost all the hospitals in the city to diagnose whatever my physical ailment ended up being; I suffered huge gastro problems. Thankfully, in the past number of months, that seems to have normalised to a great degree.


Unfortunately, because of recent romantic stresses, my drinking has resurfaced to a greater degree, though i've kept tabs on it and was successful in setting a limit for myself in the past months when i chose to start drinking, albeit for the 'right reasons', again.


I really don't want to go through the hell of withdrawal which i've done (cold turkey) on a number of occasions, and i havent been drinking for long enough or heavily enough (i no longer touch spirits, only beer and alcopops/wine coolers) for a full-blown withdrawal, but i'm worried i have the ability to get to that point again, as my tolerance has shot up very quickly.


Nor do i want to worry those around me who care and have seen me through the rigours of alcoholism and drug addiction, it's been Hell.


Some guidance and support would be appreciated.

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Re: Slipping Back - May 3rd 2012, 12:22 AM

Hey, usually I've found that the withdraw symptoms for liqure are worse than the withdraw symptoms of beer and wine coolers (not sure if thats a scientific fact) but you know that it can become a problem again and that's a really good thing that you can realize that. I know a little bit more than the average on looker on here (no offense to anyone) and with the problems you're going through now and then drinking to take the edge off--well you're trading one problem for another, really. On top of that it's gradually shifting from "the right" reasons to becoming a emotional crutch.

I would really, strongly, urge you to try and dial it back to maybe weekends or just light beer for now and limit it to 2 max. The drink is a very slippery bastard and can hit us when we didn't even notice it would become a problem but me and everyone else here do care about you, and will support you to keep on trying to stay on the right path.

You are loved and you are cared for, Michy and never forget that *hugs*


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Re: Slipping Back - May 3rd 2012, 10:30 AM

Is there anyway you can go to a local clinic for a safe detox rather than having to do this alone, and cold turkey? I'm unsure what they offer in your area. Stay strong!


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Re: Slipping Back - May 3rd 2012, 12:25 PM

Had a scary experience last night, mixed my meds with alcohol and ended up facepalming the floor twice, losing consciousness each time for about 15-30 seconds. All right now, just have a grazed knee and bruised shin. Friend/ex/Dad helped. Really have to stop using and get this under control before it spirals again


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Re: Slipping Back - May 3rd 2012, 05:44 PM

Can anyone else give me some advice? Please? Would be appreciated. Struggling through the best I can with my various issues


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Re: Slipping Back - May 7th 2012, 11:31 AM

PLEASE HELP!

I don't want to make a newer thread as i've made this one already.

I feel i'm slipping back into drinking and I need help.

Please, advice and responses would be much appreciated...

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Re: Slipping Back - May 7th 2012, 09:30 PM

Michy, I know you're scared. I hope you'll be okay. You've got my best wishes and hugs. Maybe really do go back to AA? Try to find an alternative if they don't work out for you? I wish you well.
   
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