Pill Popping... </3

[kayla1234]

Okay so... basically I'm having major issues with just about everything right now. I'm drowning in school work, just lost my best friend (emotionally, we just grew apart. we both changed... her for the worse..), and worst of all I broke up with my boyfriend with I TOTALLY regret. I hate my life right now and I'm on the verge of totally breaking down and I just want to go NUMB.

The problem is that I've been popping these pain pills in the morning but it's not really helping. It makes it really hard to concentrate at school (I forgot the my locker combo one morning and couldn't get into my locker) but it doesn't make me numb enough and I'm afraid to take any more than I already do. For pain you're supposed to onle take 1 (2 the first time only if it's really bad) and 2 is really strong for me because I'm tiny. When I take 3 or 3 1/2 it doesn't feel much different than 2 and I just worry about the affects and I know its not much but I've been gradually increasing dosage every single day just trying to numb myself and it's not workinggg... </3

Please... someone just help me... I WANT to go NUMB. I know that... I don't want anyone to tell me to just endure it... I want to be oblivious to pain emotionally but I don't want to keep popping pills like this. I don't want to do drugs. I don't want to be like thisss.... </3

Advice?

[Dr.Bobby]

Hi again, Kayla. You're keeping me busy tonite!

First, the obvious: Don't take pain pills.

Second, the best way to stop pain is to manage it, not numb it, it doesn't go away, unfortunately the mind doesn't work like that. Once you stop doing whatever it is to distract yourself, it's still there, in full force.

It's uncomfortable, I know, but you have to get thru it, everyone survives loss and stress, etc. So will you. You can either find better distractions, like being with friends or doing the activities that are fun and good for you, or if all that doesn't work, tell your guidance counselor and try talking there or getting referral to a therapist.

The issues aren't as big a problem a lot of the time as the (awful) ways people cope with them, they can cause as much trouble as the problem they're supposed to fix. Thing is, if you address the underlying issue directly, you get thru it a lot easier and painlessly, without creating new issues in the process.

[kayla1234]

Is there anyyy way to just numb it without substantially hurting myself.....? Like that rubber band trick...? That works and isn't too bad unless I do it too much... but there isn't any permanent damage... I jsut want something like that... just temporary so when things get really bad i have something. Today I didn't even plan on taking any pills but I brought them to school and then it was like impulse because seeing him was a lot to deal with so I popped in three and it kinda helped... I just don't want it to be really harmful. I need something for that sudden impulse to go numb though.. I can't fight it and need a fast alternative sometimes...

[Ryan1]

If you take these pills to numb your emotions nothing will get corrected it’ll just make it harder. I know what you’re going through I’ve been there myself, life isn’t easy but its important to keep pushing forward and trying to make the best of what you have to work with. If you’re upset that you broke up with your boyfriend maybe you should call him and talk, let him know how you feel.

Pain pills are really hard on the liver and can cause damage after prolonged usage. This is something that will make you feel worse as time goes on. I know the feeling of being numb down to the last nerve, but realistically what changes? When you wakeup out of that state your in the same position as you were the day before.

Its not worth it, try to find more constructive ways to deal with these emotions.