searching for someone who understands .

[mackenzie12]

im mackenzie. im 13.

i lost my mom on Dec 23,2011.

i miss my best friend. i miss my mom.

i just found this site. and am looking to chat with someone who can relate.

i feel so alone. my dad made me and my brothre move to a diff province. to be closer to his family. he says it what mom wanted.

mom did not want to die.

i dont have any friends. just feel so alone and afraid to hurt myself. my brother act like nothin happens. why cant i?

sometime i just feel so stupid for thinking this..maybe i am

[Chris.]

I really am truly sorry for your loss. Being sad, crying, and sometimes even thinking about hurting yourself (to some extent) is normal for the grieving process. I'm sure your mom didn't want to die, no one wants to die, but unfortunately its the process of life. I personally have never lost a parent yet, however I have lost friends, and extended family members - so I can somewhat understand what you are going through.

If you ever need to talk to someone, you can always feel free to PM me. I'll keep you and all those effected by this in my thoughts.


Best wishes,
Chris

[dr2005]

Hey Mackenzie,

Likewise, I am truly sorry for your loss - I can only imagine what you must be feeling right now. Losing any loved one is a very hard experience, and a parent even more so, and as Chris says what you have been feeling is a perfectly natural response to losing your mom. People grieve in different ways, and your brother has chosen a different way to handle his to you - that doesn't mean yours is the wrong way by any means. The main thing is to let yourself feel however you feel, and not be worried by what others may think. That is the best way to help yourself through this time.
If you want to PM/VM feel free to, and like Chris I will keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers.

Take care.

[Alergnon]

Hello,
I am very sorry for your loss.

I am just wondering you live in Ontario, Canada- and so do I, and I would love to provide you will two numbers that can help you. The first one I'll give you, you may have used them or heard about them, it's called Kids Help Phone, it's free, confidential and anonymous counseling. They have a web site- www.kidshelpphone.ca and their number is 1-800-668-6868 there 24/7. Another number I can give you which is very new and it's just for Ontarioians it's a number you call 2-1-1, that is all you push. It's a number you call and ask for services in your community about anything. Give them your situation, what you may be looking for and they can help you out. That number is also 24/7.

I am very sorry about your loss in your family. Also, everyone deals with their own pain of any kind differently than others do. My therapist always tell me that be believes that when someone does anything to hurt themselves or does something they regret, at that moment is the only way he/she can handle their pain.

If you have any questions about the numbers you could always send me a Private Message to me.

[senrol34]

Hi Mackenzie, I am very sorry for your loss.

It is hard when you lose someone, but you should know that, it is OK feel sad, and whatever you want to feel. It is the normal part of grieving process. I know what it feels like to lose someone, because I lost someone close to me.

What you said about your brother acting like nothing happened, does not mean that it is wrong or he is not also grieving. People have there own way of dealing with grief. Take things as they go each day, and if you want to share and talk about your emotions and feelings then perhaps if you want to, you could talk to your family about it.
If you don't want to talk, then write down everything that you feel,and keep it somewhere like a journal. Don't feel like you are alone, because there are people that will be there to just to listen, perhaps a teacher.If you ever want to talk, you can message me as my door is always open.

take care Stuart.