Triggering (Grieving): I think it's too late...

[Teddy Bear]

Earlier before, last year I think, I was here on the chatrooms and I was talking to this girl who was also a member here. I won't tell much about her, but she was super depressed to the point of attempting suicide. Luckily, however, I began to talk to her, and I was able to talk her out of it by promising to be her friend. I didn't know about it until she told me that I saved her life by being her friend, but I still did. The problem is that I haven't been able to talk to her at all because I haven't had internet access for months, and I wanted to tell her that I'm sorry for being such a lousy friend due to not being able to talk to her. And now that I can use the internet at the library, I want to be able to take this chance to tell her that, but she's terminally sick, and I think I'm too late to tell her. I haven't been able to contact her at all, not even through Facebook. And now I might be too late to tell her how sorry I am. She was a member on TeenHelp, so I may be able to find her yet, but still, I may be too late. She could already be dead. That poor girl... I just wanted to help her.

[tinkerbell92]

I understand exactly what you are talking about.. I was once a depressed and wanted to get away from it all until i met this person online and he helped me deal with my problems by being a friend and talking to me. Tho i dont talk to him anymore because i lost my internet for about 4 months. And i cant find him anymore. But still in the back of my mind i know if i found him, he would still be my friend. Everytime i get down about something i always think about what he said all the times before. Im sure she has that memory in her head and hopefully she hasnt done anything to take that memory away. But Ian, if she did do something to harm herself or take her life away...Thats not because of you. Some people think thats the only way out and can do some crazy things. I would still continue to search for her. Until you know for sure whats happened. She could be searching for you also. Who knows.. But NEVER think of the worst out come. Always think positive.. Because the way i see it... If you think negative, negative things will happen.. And if you think positive then something positive will happen..
Im also here for you if you need to vent about anything.. You can always write me.. Im here to answer or give you advice or simplely just sit here and listen to anything you wanna talk about..