i miss them so much

[Misslostintears]

Its been amost 2 years since my friend Dj commited suicide. I miss him terribly. I didn't reay know him that we but it was my older brother in a way. I met him through my friend cupcake. We used to stay up talking. He was the older brother I never had, I coud tell him everything. He gave me advice too. Then he moveed from small Meriden,Ct to canada. He got realy depressed so I cheer him up as much as I could. He came to visit on a Friday. That weekend I had a dream of him killing himself. Monday came by and. Bam 2 days after my dream he shot himself. I was crying when cupcake told me. Because I knew it was going to happen but I didn't stop it. I could of but I didn't think it was going to happen.

Its been months since Christina's death. Stupid drunk driver. She was coming to visit cupcake with baby DJ (named after Dj). She had driven from the new york air port, I think it was. And she was in meriden or close I don't remember when she got into a car aciddent. The driver of the othr car was drunk. She lost her ife. Eaving behind a coupe month old baby. Who was in the hospita. She was ike that older sister I always wanted. I tod her amost everything. She even asked me to hep plan her wedding and I was so happy. He hubby was a good guy ( apart from the. Random drinking) and she had the most beautiful baby. But she's gone now though I still hear from her and see her in my dreams. I couple have done something. I say it in a dream. Her dream the baby in the back seat. The car crash I saw it but I didn't think about it. And I saw it 2 days before. It happened. Right after her death my mom and I had different dearms when she woud ask about baby dj and mikie and the others. I woud wake up and know she was there and we talk for hours. Every month she asks. I can feel her presence here next to me.

I miss them both so much. I coud have saved them. I saw it happen and I didn't do anything

[Dez]

It's not your fault Daisy. I promise you that for DJ, even being a good friend to him was a great help and with Christina, I don't know if you could have stopped her from visiting, I'm just glad that baby DJ is okay. Keep them in your memory and your heart and try to stay happy like I'm sure they want you to be.

[alibear101]

hey, it can be so hard to lose someone that you care about; to lose 2 people that you care about. WOW you have got to be such a strong and amazing girl daisy. I wish i had the strength that you do. i know exactly how you feel, an ex of mine committed suicide and i had a dream about it just before it happened. i was devastated, but it wasn't my fault. he was in a horrible place and he just didn't think that anything else was right. this was the only thing he knew and so he did it. the same goes for DJ. i can bet that he loves you with all his heart and that if he had a second chance he wouldn't do it. I am so sorry about Christina. Drunk drivers should rot in jail for the rest of their lives. they tear people apart. its a horrible thing for people to do. you would think people would know better. i guess, all i can say to comfort you is that they both love and care about you and they would want you to be happy and to move on. don't get me wrong, i am not saying that you should forget them, just try to think about all the good times you had with them and remember that everything happens for a reason. if you ever need to talk please message me! I am always available