Gah!!

[Intoxication]

I have really bad anxiety... like, I used to have 3-5 anxiety attacks a day on GOOD days. The worst part was, I would have them regardless of where I was. At home, at school, in the store, at other people's houses... When I went to Disneyland last month, I had an anxiety attack outside of Disney Showcase. Just up and puked my guts out right in front of Disney Showcase. When I went to Sunsplash with my buds a week or so later, I had an anxiety attack. Freaked out me and my friend's mom. I always feel like I'm dying. I've been on Lexapro for about three months now, and we recently upped it to 20 mg (as opposed to 10) to help my severe anxiety.
My last attack was a couple days ago, and I feel like it's still there. About a month and a half ago, it was controlling my life. Literally taking over. I could hardly do anything productive without having an anxiety attack. I've had a really rough week. I just don't know how I'll be able to handle another anxiety attack, or if the Lexapro doesn't help and it gets really bad again.
I'm freaked. Help?

[Madeleine.Claire]

Wait a little while for the lexapro to get into your system all the way. When I got onto my new medication it took almost 2 weeks.

I know what it's like to have anxiety attacks constantly, I know that it sucks. I almost had a seizure and a whole lot of things have happened.

The fact is that doctors sometimes have to experiment to get you onto the right balance of medication. I've been on two different ones, and the second one (which I'm on now) has helped a lot more than the first.

When you feel like you're going to have an attack, try to take deep deep breaths. It always helps me calm down, remove yourself from the situation for a minute and over all just tell yourself that it's okay. I know it can be hard sometimes.

If you ever need help you can PM me. I don't have anxiety attacks as often but I just have general anxiety constantly, which is almost worse. I can help you if you need it (:

<3

[Intoxication]

I just seriously wish it would go away. It's genetic- my father had anxiety as a young man, 19-20 years old, and I'm 14 and had it since I was 11. From what I've seen of my father, he's overcome the anxiety. I've never heard him say he's had an anxiety attack. It went from being very, very few and far between- I only had two anxiety attack in the span of 8 months. Then it got steadily worse- a few times every month, a couple times a week, and about a month ago, as I said earlier, it was so bad I was having 6-8 a day. Its not that bad anymore, now that we've upped the dosage, but I just want it to go away so bad... I'd give anything for the anxiety to go away. I've considered suicide, to be perfectly honest, just to get away from the anxiety. Stupid, I know, but... its just horrible. I really can't handle any more of it.