Anxiety stopping me from looking for a job..

[bitesize]

I can't BELIEVE I'm posting this.
I can't believe I'm admitting this to anyone in the world. I can't say this to anyone in my life.

I've never been diagnosed with anxiety or anything, but I do get a little bit of it sometimes ~ sometimes (occasionally) I really don't want to go out, or talk to people I don't know, because I feel like people are judging me, and that I look like a fifteen year old, but it's never hugely affected my life so much that it was a big problem. I usually love people and I like being the centre of attention.

But the thing is, I need a job. I need a job, so badly. All of my friends are working, and I'm tired of not being able to afford clothes or a hair cut or going out, or coming home early from places on public transport because I can't afford a taxi. I need money. I really really need a job.

But that scares me so much that I want to cry. << I can't believe I've just admitted that. it took me a long, long time, up until a few weeks ago, to admit it to myself. I feel like no one will want to hire me, because I don't have enough experience and I look really boring and really young. If they do hire me I will get fired straight away, which would be so embarrassing. I just don't know things. I'm really stupid and a really slow learner, and I hat the idea that I look incompetent, and that people will look at me and think that I look really young, and that I don't know what I'm doing, and why am I even here. And then i'll know they're thinking that and I'll look really flustered and freak out and it won't help.

^^ All of these thoughts are preventing me looking for a job, even though I need one so desperately. I've looked for a few in the past few months, but nothing happened, which didn't really help my confidence, even though I know you have to keep trying.


I don't know what to do. I can't not get a job, but I obviously can't get one either, feeling this way. I don't know how to get rid of this I don't want to go on meds and I don't have the time or money for therapy, especially for a problem that I've never even been officially diagnosed with. I can't say this to my friends or anyone, I feel pathetic, no one would understand.


Please help

[Thirteen]

Well, I have a solution that might help you (if it's available there).

Have you considered an Employment Help Centre? We have them here, it's a place you go to, and they help you with resume building, as well as helping you find jobs within your area that might interest you. If you have them, and they're anything like they are over here, you can also talk about interview skills, and even see a Stress Counselor.

Look around for different places that help you find employment, if you're not confident enough to do it on your own.