Oh, the simple things. (:

[BECCALICIOUS!]

So much good has been happening lately, it's ridiculous. Some of it's big, but especially today... most of what's been making me happy is just the little things.

First day back at school on Tuesday, wow. It was FAR from perfect. I had two incidents with the same so-called "friend" that REALLY pissed me off. But yanno what? It was still a REALLY good day. Ashley wasn't in school, which is GREAT because as I was walking to my locker, I kept muttering, "I'mgonnaf*ckingkillher" under my breath repetitively. Liz and I sat together at lunch and talked LOADS about everything - the her/Ashley/Joe situation (which sparked the second "incident" with the other "friend"), our freshman she & our other friend Shelby nicknamed Fiyah Dick, & our matching underwear we bought at Hot Topic, as well as other, more serious subjects. I forgot, in light of the whole Ashley situation, how great of a friend Liz really is.

Then, religion class, was soooo funny. My friend Ryan, who sits behind me, was tired, and he had his head down on the desk. I turned around in my seat and was resting my arm on the desk, and he was like, "Becca, this is going to be so awkward, but you smell really good!" I was just, like, "Wow, Ryan, that's probably the most awkard thing you've ever said to me." And then the guy who sits next to me, Joe, and the guy who sits next to him, Elvis, were curious as to what we were talking about, so Ryan was like, "Elvis, come here, smell Becca!" And he did, and he was like, "WOW, you do smell good!" And I was still in one of those, "WTF JUST HAPPENED?" phases and was cracking up the entire time. Yanno, it isn't that funny in words, 'cause I SUCK as a story-teller, but it totally made my day. (:

Then, choir was good, because we got to learn different music terms, and precalc made me smiley 'cause I managed to answer Mr. House's question as precisely as possible, which made me all shy/proud smiley.

After school, I was still in a good mood. I got home, and I did homework. That's a HUGE issue for me lately 'cause I've been slacking off in school a lot and it's starting to show. The thing is, even though I didn't finish all my homework, the majority that I DID complete, I put so much effort into. I spent about three hours working dilligently before I ran out of patience. And, I got my room clean, which is amazing 'cause it hasn't been clean all vacation and I finally just DID IT.

THENNNN, I got to talk to my bestfriend, Kevin, which ALWAYS puts me in a good mood. We've been a little rocky lately, but things are finally good.

Anyways, after that I went to bed, and I wore my snowflake pajama bottoms for luck. And, I woke up at the usual time this morning (somewhere between 6 and 6:15 AM), ran downstairs and promptly forced my father (who sleeps on the living room couch) to turn on the television for school closings. And then I had to wait in the COLD, with my kitty, for the news channel to go ALL THE WAY THROUGH until it reached "Springfield Public Schools - Closed." But, when I did, I was happy, 'cause then I got to sleep in until 9:42 AM.

Then, today was just a good day, even though nothing huge happened at all. I was really happy because I took a nice hot shower this morning after I woke up and I used my sister's good-smelling body wash. For me, a hot shower does wonders, especially in the morning. And I finally had time to shave my legs - which I know, is kinda personal, but I have to wear a skirt year-round and I never have time/patience to shave. Then, I spent all day just being lazy, and I played with my cat and my hands are scratched up consequently.

PLUS PLUS PLUS! I came online to discover that TH IS BACK UP! Which totally made my day, even though chat is being a b!tch and won't load for me.

Oh, and I've also been REALLY good because my life has been taking a turn for the better in major ways. Vacation was stressful - I was overly depressed, paranoid, and unsure of everything. But, the first day back... it just through everything right on track again. I've finally decided what I wanna do with my life. You see, for the longest time, I've been wanting to become an interior designer, but that's changed recently, and I didn't know what I wanted to do, to the point where I had no motivation to work whatsoever. But I've decided that I want to become a college mathematics professor, since math is my strongest point (even better than art and design!) and I actually put effort into it, unlike most other things besides my appearance.

And and and, I decided on my New Year's Resolutions:
1. Stop simply "taking" people's shit. I have a bad habit of just taking the weight of all the insults and snide remarks people give me and putting on a fake smile and letting it absolutely destroy me inside. Tuesday, I had those two incidents with that "friend," but they didn't destroy me whatsoever, and I managed to stand up for myself, for once. I'm sick of everyone's words get to me. I'm going to cut certain people out of my life as best I can and, if I have to, bite back at those who are hurting me. 'Cause, yanno, there's only so much I can take.

2. Become less dependent on my best friends. I have these two kids I consider(ed) my best friends, Kevin & Ryan. And I kindof started to realize how much I completely depend on them for everything. Especially with Ryan, I'd write him notes every day... I put my utter trust in him, and he did some things that destroyed the majority of the trust I put in him. But, it kind of made me realize how much more I need to be an independent person. Even with Kevin, like, I talk to him SO MUCH, and I'd depend on his advice to get me better, and I NEED to stop doing that - he might not always be in my life, and there might be some times where I'll be completely & utterly alone. I'll always talk to him about everything, but I won't depend on him as much to make me happy.


OH OH OH OH OH! I'M AT 26 DAYS SI FREE!

Anyways, that is my SUPER LONG post about my happiness lately. I now have to go do english, government, and Latin homework. That felt nice, though, to vent about all the HAPPY things in life instead of the sorrows.

[Kanye West]

Beccaaaaa. I'm so glad that you have been feeling better lately. You can be whatever you want to be in life, and I hope we can hear more good things coming from your life soon :] Also hope that you can fulfill your resolutions.

[J&M's Mommy]

It sounds like you had a great day/days. I am glad that you are feeling much better about your life/situations and that you decided what you wanted to do with your life. (You probably have one up on a lot of people with that decision, lol.)

I hope your happy streak continues!!

[Magical Forest.]

I'm glad you've had a good couple of days, everyone needs them
Well done on not SIing by the way!

x

[Tegan]

Awh that's awesome
and I actually laughed out loud at the whole "becca smells good thing"
it might just be that i'm weird but I completely found that amusing.
lol Hope you have tons more awesome days